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Medicine Posting

I do think Medicine is one of the best posting here. We were posted in Dr T.M.A. Pai Hospital, Udupi which is about 15-min journey (with bus) from Manipal. Some of my batchmate (I think all of them) thought it was the most tiring posting since we've been there from 9.30 am to 12.30 pm (morning posting) at from 2.30 pm to 4.30 pm (afternoon posting). Basically we need to clerk a case from 9.30 am to 11.00 am before presenting it to respective consultant later. Another one would be in the afternoon where clerking of case for half an hour. Two cases would be present by two pairs. Why I'm saying it's the best posting because we used most of the time learning to take a history from patients (communicating in local language is the lare barrier but somehow we managed to do it with broken English+broken Kannada+signal language) and perform some clinical examination. I feel most of my time is occupied with lots of thing. Other might think this posting is not as relaxing as Community Medicine or Surgery, where we could finish the class early and not much of workload. As for me, I think vice versa coz' if you want a relaxing and less tense posting, it's better for you taking other course other than medicine. You need to give your life to medicine (just express my own feeling). Anyway, Medicine (apart of O&G, my other favourite posting) is the time where we're in contact with patient. I've really learnt a lot from the patients admitted to the General Ward of Dr T.M.A. Pai Hospital. It's the time where I practised my percussion on the chest area, auscultation to listen to the heart sounds etc etc. I never forgot this one patient for entire life. Mrs Laxmi, who suffered from heart disease (in which I felt pity for her but at the same time excited with the findings that she had, namely pansystolic murmur, tapping apex, parasternal heave, features of central cyanosis and still long list to go). Tuberculosis is very rampant in India so we could see some of the beds with patients of having TB. Most of the patients were cooperative eventhough all 23 of us crowding one bed just to listen to crepitations and rhonchi. They've leading our very first step of attaining the competency as a doctor. Like the first teacher who taught us ABC, I am very thankful to all the patients there for being my guidance. They do, have taught me many things. I wish I can make my time to the most for Medicine posting once I've come back to Malacca for Phase II of MBBS later.

Thank you Dr Manjunath, Dr Lorraine, Dr Ram Bhat, Dr Seema and Dr Abdul Razak for your committment and patience towards us.

p/s: I still want to specialize in O&G

Surgery Posting

The Duration
3 weeks (5 November 2008 until 25 November 2008)

The Lecturers
Dr Vinayak Shenoy Kallya
Dr L. Lobo
Dr Suresh R.
Dr Saurabh Agrawal

The Topics (Clinical)
Examination of a lump or swelling
Examination of an ulcer
Examination of peripheral vascular diseases and gangrene
Examination of varicose veins
Examination of the thyroid gland
Examination of the breast
Examination of an acute abdomen
Examination of chronic abdominal conditions
Examination of a case of hernia
Examination of a swelling in the inguinoscrotal region or groin

The Books
Clinical
- A manual on Clinical Surgery (7th edition) by S. Das
Theory
- Short Textbook of Surgery (25th edition) by Bailey and Love
- Manipal Manual on Surgery (2nd edition) by K. Rajgopal Shenoy
(p/s: There are other reference books. Anatomy books also included)

The surgeries that I've observed in operation theatre
- A case of lipoma : conducted by Dr Anup
- A case of fistula in ano : conducted by Dr Shenoy
- A case of umbilical hernia : conducted by Dr Saurabh, Dr Anup and Dr Suresh

The End Posting Examination
Consist of only VIVA
Attendance no. 1-10 : Dr Lobo
Attendance no. 11-20 : Dr Suresh (I was assigned to Dr. Suresh)
Attendance no. 21-23 : Dr. Shenoy
(p/s: Dr Suresh allowed me to choose any topic that I wanted, so I chose 'Breast'. The only person in my group that chose the topic)

Faces of Me

Look how much I differ during Grand Dinner (INTEC) for 2005 and 2006 as well as during College Day for January 2007, December 2007 and November 2008

A bit tension-looked face..this is a candid pic

(Grand Dinner INTEC 2005)

More matured looking
(Grand Dinner INTEC 2006)

Don't have individual picture (College Day January 2007)

Pinkish and sweet (College Day December 2007)

The last College Day I've attended in MMMC, Manipal Campus

(College Day 2008)

Flying Boat

What an interesting scenario in the operation theatre (OT) just now! It seems Dr Suresh was pretty bored with the operation so he made us a FLYING BOAT! At first, I thought he just pulling our leg but when he started folding a piece of paper (it was originally a pair of gloves paper bag), I knew that he's serious to make one. He even asked us not to tell his superior what he has done during that time (but anyway, there were other surgeons inside the OT). Somehow it diverted our attention on focusing to the operation. We wanted to observe the operation till the end but he kept showed us how to make it. We told that we never made one before and he was so surprise. Pretty childish. But anyway we kept him company till he finished folding the 'flying boat'. One of my colleague clapped as a support, therefore he offered to give the paper boat to her. Wow, it is indeed an 'amazing' experience.

Editorial Board 2008

I'm joining Editorial Board!!!!

It's rather a spontaneous decision since I don't want to join the board at the first place

I am even just gaze through the poster and don't think anything about it

Don't know why I changed my mind after that

Maybe some sort of intuition telling me to become part of the members

Although my spoken + written English really upside down, I decided to be the part of the board with intention to sharpen certain soft skills...plus it will be a great experience

The chief-editor a.k.a. my batch mate placed me as the editor for student category (I guess he knew my limitation, but it's ok since I feel comfortable with it)

Anyway this is just the beginning....the exploration is yet to come

JaSSI

At last!!!!!!!

IMAM India Student Chapter has been established! And we have our own programme, Jalinan Sahabat Seluruh India (JaSSI) as a way to gather all Muslim students all over India. My dream becoming true. Although I'm not the one who pioneering the establishment but I'm glad becoming the part of it. I managed to involve at the very last minute. I will leaving Manipal very soon but I hope the committee of IMAM India will do everything possible to make it as successful as they can. To create a network among the Muslim students in India. To unite everyone so that each and everyone knows what happened in Bangalore, Mangalore, Manipal, Belgaum and Davangere. To support each other when in need. I am still supporting even when I have come back to Malaysia.

*Visit http://imam-indiastudentchapter.blogspot.com

' To Kill a Mosqito using an Atomic Bomb '

To kill a mosquito using an atomic bomb. Sounds exaggerated but in some ways the metaphor used by Dr Haridas has its own meaning. Well actually, he said it after discussing a case of a patient having relapsing of bipolar affective disorder throughout two years despite has been prescribed with some meds (don't remember whether it lithium, risperidone or sodium valproate). He questioning the reason of tapering the dose of the drugs after the patient become stable for some time and then a few months later, she showed the symptoms again. Basically what he trying to say is, doctors nowadays need to play safe. Giving the strongest and best medicine possible so that the symptoms will never appear and patients satisfied with their health . Even if the meds bring about actions which are not needed. Yeah, maybe for some doctors, there is no such doctor-patient relationship but more towards businessman-client relationship. The client is the patient. The businessman is the doctor. The patient come to the doctor for treatment of illnesses. The doctor treat the patient. The patient pay the doctor for his/her consultation. The view is like that. We are not realizing it but it happens that way. The metaphor of mosquito referring to a disease. Killing the mosquito using an atomic bomb where the bomb actually refers to the best meds/procedures/methods to cure a disease. Don't give the chance for a disease to complicate or else it will trouble the patients in future. The safest step; prescribed the most powerful drug. The disease will definitely disappear. It sounds simple but it not always work like that. There are so many factors that need to be consider. Meds not always the answer of all diseases. I'm just entering the clinics phase and I don't know much about medicine yet. It's difficult for me to analyse what he had said. Maybe he tried to joke. Or maybe he just gave us the reality of world of medicine. My journey is way too long. I kept thinking what he really meant by saying that phrase. Only time can make me understand. Some day.

A World of Third Year

My postings:

Psychiatry
Surgery
Medicine

OBG and Paediatrics (Udupi)
OBG and Paediatrics (Karkala)
Community Medicine

Bye Bye Holiday

Aiseh...dah nak habis cuti.

Mulalah terasa homesick ni.

Hmm...I'm going to miss my lil' kittens, Lou and Peach...nanti bila balik untuk cuti akan datang, dah hilang ke'comel'an pula.

My dearest Lou

Peach tengah tidur

Time passed by so fast. I'm going to enter my third year and becoming the senior most in MMMC Manipal Campus. Well, there is another 5 months and I will bid farewell to Manipal.

Selamat Hari Raya

My Precious 6-Weeks

Yea...balik rumah!!!!

Missed my home so much....

Looking forward for this 6-weeks-holiday

So many things to do....and I hope I'll manage my free time to its fullness

^_^

I'm going to enjoy this holiday!!

VIVA

It all happened within a blink of eyes.

This is my story about VIVA. I was one of the students who got 23 marks for cumulative marks of internal examination. My name appears in the list of students who need to attend the distinction VIVA today. I still could not believe when I checked the list name yesterday, I was one of those students. The great thing about your name appearing in the list is you knew that you're already pass for the examination and your mark probably more than 75%. The difficult part is you'll need to go through the VIVA before it confirmed that you deserved to get distinction or not. This is the tough part. To my surprise, lots of other people whom I thinked should be in the list, didn't appear. Guess, I was the lucky one.

So, because of the VIVA I came to library to study and did some discussion. The first time ever in second year I came to library to study. I could see surprised face looking at me. Never mind about that. I didn't put any hope to get VIVA for distinction. But since my name has appeared, I decided to give a try. This is my first experience ever to attend VIVA. I need to go through back all the notes once again. It is impossible to do it in one night but you'll need to put some effort if you want it, right? Although I didn't have any intuition what would happen the following the next day, I prayed to Him for my best. Whether I will get distinction or not, it depends with His will.

My challenge begins when the external examiner started to ask me question about autopsy. I misunderstood the question the question at the beginning but thanks to Dr Vrinda who guide to give the answer that he wanted to hear eventhough it was incomplete and I answered it without full confidence. He asking the next question which I couldn't remember and I told him I couldn't answer the question because I didn't know what it is. A minus for me. The next examiner asked me about the causes of death due to cut throat injury which I thinked I managed to answer it but once again without any confidence. I stumbled for few seconds to give the list for the causes. Hmm..it seems I didn't answer well enough. Dr Arun, my lecturer threw questions which I could answer. My saver for the VIVA. Well, I have done the best. I didn't deserve to get distinction, I guess. There is still a lot of things that I need to sharpen before I want to get good marks. But anyway, it was a new experience to me. It is never hurt if you want to try.

Thanks to all friends who wished me luck and even called me how I am doing. It gave me strength to do it. Ok, let go this for a moment and concentrate to more important mission tomorrow. My practical exam will be on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. The last portion of examination before I go back.

Good luck Damia!

Docs On New Tower

When a panel of doctors was asked to vote on adding a new tower to their hospital,

The Allergists voted to scratch it

The Dermatologists advised not to make any rash moves

The Gastroenterologists had sort of a gut feeling about it

The Neurologists thought the administration had a lot of nerve

The Obstetricians felt they were all laboring under a misconception

The Ophthalmologists considered the idea shortsighted

The Pathologists yelled, "Over my dead body"

The Pediatricians said, "Oh, Grow up!"

The Psychiatrists thought the whole idea was madness

The Radiologists could see right through it

The Surgeons decided to wash their hands of the whole thing

The Internists thought it was a bitter pill to swallow

The Plastic Surgeons said, "This puts a whole new face on the matter."

The Podiatrists thought it was a step forward

The Urologists felt the scheme wouldn't hold water.

The Anesthesiologists thought the whole idea was a gas

The Cardiologists didn't have the heart to say no

In the end,

The Proctologists left the decision up to some asshole in administration.


Hihihi...

* thanks Kak Tasnim for wonderful joke

A Split Second

Do you agree with this:

A split second can change everything

I do agree with this statement. We also can put in other way like 'A slight changes can gives a significant impact' or 'A slight mistake can ruin everything'. In life, we might encounter such scenario. Like if we have extra minute or even second, we can do this or do that. For example, if only I arrived a minute earlier, I might met him/her. If I have extra second I could wrote that word (in examination). If I didn't say those words, we might be still friends. And also other examples that you might think of. It shows that how a second, a minute, a word, a sentence is really important in that kind of situation. You became relief if you managed to get it but you can be really regretful if you missed it. What will you do if you need to face those situation? And it is matter so much to you. And it means everything to you but you miss it. Will you blame yourself? Will you keep thinking about it always? Will you regret it for lifelong? Will you wish you can turn back time and change it? It's difficult right?

What I am trying to say, this is why we need to have faith to Him. Everything that happen even if it do not affect that much in present, it will getting bigger and bigger in future. We may not feel anything at the beginning but sooner or later how you wish you could change it. Not regretting what had happened because He has destined it to happen no matter what you do. Men's fate has be written even before his birth. We think we need that tiny changes to rechange what had happened but sometimes we forget that He arranged like that so that we can learn. To look back why it gone wrong. To rethink our action before. And not just saying, 'If only I....' or 'I wish it would not happen'. We're not the one who controlling our life but the way our life pass by has been destined before whether we like it or not. He gives what we need, not what we want because He knows us much better from any other people. We think we want it but He knows we need it more than we want it. We may not realize until one day when you understand why it goes by His way. You will grateful it has not happened the way you want it to happen.

So, don't be sad if we did slight mistake that we hope we can avoid it or if we missed the split second or minute which we thinking so much that we need it. It's not worth if you kept blaming and cursing yourself. What had happened should have been regretted if it's wrong but not for long. This is the way He teaches us about life, of how we need to be downearth and depend on Him. He never creates something for nonsense or valueless. Thus, let's change our mindset. Everything happened has the reason behind it.

The Disappointing Moment

Oh well, finally Malaysia got silver for badminton in men single category. I wish Chong Wei can do much better. He seems pretty stress that night. Was it because his match against Lin Dan? Or because there were too many Chinese supporters? Chong Wei lets Lin Dan nailed himself in bot sets. Second set is much worse than the first one. He didn't play competitively and let Lin Dan snatched the victory to get Malaysia's first gold ever. He missed the chance for airing 'Negaraku' in BJUT Gimnasium. What a waste. Hmm...I guess it's never be easy. It looks that Chong Wei should do better but we don't know if we're not in his shoes. It's easy to say something but it is never easy if we're in such position. Yet, our contingent need to learn something from these event. Be it is Olympics, Commonwealth or others. You'll need to put more effort. You'll need to do something beyond your limit. Never be satisfied with what that you have done and need to strive more. I would say this to every Malaysia's athletes. We lack qualities.

It seems we need to wait some more time but till when? Do we need to be the host first so that we can beat athletes from other countries? It need not to be necessary. Come on Malaysia's contingent, you know you can do it. You can do much better than this. Put aside those giant countries. It is impossible right now but one day, it can happen. We might be small but our spirit is BIG!

You Know It's Not Your Day When...

Yesterday is supposed to be a day for me to relax. Enjoying an outing after months of burying myself in books. However, it turns upside down. Everything is going well before I started to throw up during the ride to Mangalore. Gosh, I feel really terrible. And because of me, everyone is late for Dark Night show. I felt guilty. We're all a few minutes late for the movie. My seat is not even nearby with others. My abdomen is cramping. My stomach is growling since all content of my stomach has been thrown up. My headache superadding everything. No one offering me anything to clear my throat. I felt really sick. I just want to go back but I don't want disappointing others. They're really looking forward to watch Dark Knight. My expression makes others scared to say anything of me. They just keep quiet. Suddenly, my existence is not being appreciated. Its like I have just yelling or something at them. Err...hello, anyone? The journey back is much better but again I throw up. Luckily we have reached our apartment. However, I couldn't manage to go to bathroom, instead I throw up just outside the apartment. I was fortunate no one was there. It really a waste since my lunch which cost me Rs180 which safely reach the stomach two hours earlier has been thrown up. It's really not my day. Maybe I should take hyoscine (antiemetic) before starting the journey.

Bermulanya Olimpik...

Hari ke-5 Sukan Olimpik...

Tatkala negara-negara jiran sudah menempah pingat masing-masing, pasukan Malaysia masih lagi terkial-kial mencari kedudukan untuk melayakkan diri dalam pusingan akhir. Sedikit mengecewakan. Tiadakah peluang Malaysia untuk mendapatkan pingat? Kali terakhir Malaysia mendapat pingat dalam Sukan Olimpik adalah suatu jangka masa yang panjang. Daripada aku seorang murid sekolah rendah hinggalah aku sudah menjadi penuntut kolej perubatan.

Dan penyakit lamaku berulang kembali. Apabila sahaja bermula temasya sukan tak kiralah Sukan Olimpik, Sukan Komanwel, atau seumpamanya, semangat untuk menceburi sukan pasti akan berkobar-kobar. Rasa ingin menyertai kontinjen Malaysia jadi menebal. (In your dream, Damia). Tiada satu sukan pun yang aku punyai kebolehan. Mungkin aku lebih layak dikatakan pasif dalam sukan. Satu-satunya sukan yang pernah aku ceburi secara serius sepanjang hidup adalah seni mempertahankan diri. Itupun terpaksa menahan diri akhirnya disebabkan kecederaan pada kaki. Tetapi aku sempat menyertai satu kejohanan sebelum 'bersara'. Satu perasaan yang menyeronokkan walaupun tika itu hampir putus nafas dibuatnya kerana terlalu berdebar-debar. Namun keseronokan melihat perlawanan tidak kisah dalam apa jua acara sekalipun, tidak dapat digambarkan denan kata-kata. Menjadi penonton tidak sama seperti menjadi pemain. Debaran yang dirasa sangat berbeza.

Aku berharap Kontinjen Malaysia akan menghasilkan sekurang-kurangnya sebutir pingat. Walaupun harapan semakin tipis, aku harap mereka akan mencuba yang terbaik.

Standing in The Eyes of the World

When is my turn?

Sigh..I just got a wedding invitation from my former classmate during Form 3. And again, I cannot make it just because I am still in Manipal. This is my third/fourth time for not being able to attend wedding ceremony of my friends. Its really difficult since their planning do not overlap with my holidays. I hope this is the last one. I still do not have any experience to watch such wonderful day of my friend's wedding. Well, I guess it can't be help. I don't think they need to wait for my holiday to start and then decide the date so that I am able to attend! (In my dream). For this year, three of my friends have changed their title. Not 'Miss' anymore. Anyway I give my prayer and hoping everything will going well for them. Congratulation!

It makes me think...when will be my turn?

Farewell 2nd Year

Just few weeks more and I will end my sweet-yet-hectic second year. Well, compared to other colleges, this is quite late since most of my friends who studying at other places have finishing theirs and having a nice, warmed holiday. Such a waste. By the time I've finishing mine, everyone has started third year. 25 days more. I just can't wait to be in home. Yet, 5 more days left to the ultimate finale of second year student, the greatest university examination. I just can't believe time can fly that fast. It just the same speed but because I've gone through those classes, practicals, internal exams, etc. I did not notice that it's almost at the end of the year. Good luck for me. Just a little bit patience and Insha-Allah everything will go fine

Everything is Possible

Just now I went to ICHS building to check my Block 4 exam result. It's a bit late since the result has come out few days back but no one told me about it. I only come to know after my classmate send me an SMS telling me to check the internal marks. I wonder why no one told me. Has everyone become too busy for exam preparation? Never mind. At least there is still someone who remember me. Ok, that's not the point that I would like to tell. The thing is my result which surprised me. For the first time, I got distinction marks for three out four subjects. And one of them is Pharmacology. Of course, getting 75% makes me happy. Despite having acute abdominal pain during the exam and need to leave the examination hall early because I couldn't bear with the pain, I managed to do well. I recalled on that day after finishing the second paper, I rushed to home so that I could lying down on bed. It's just unbearable. The pain distracts me a lot especially during second paper. That time, I prayed so that at least I can passed the paper. I don't care whether I'll get high mark or not. I don't even put any hope. But Alhamdulillah, with His will, He gives me such result. Allah is Merciful. He knows me. He granted me with this gift when I feel hopeless. If come to think again, it is quite impossible. But nothing is impossible when He says yes. He has answered my prayer. But somehow I feel scared. I still having university exam in another two weeks. I don't know what is my fate. I just hope it goes smoothly. May He destined me to pass in this final exam. Insha-Allah, with my effort and His blessing. I put myself as His servant. I let Him destine my fate.

What Had Missing?

I looked back what I have done these few months but nothing big happened in my life. Just another day that passed by. Just another week filled with classes, laboratory works, assignments etc. I don't feel the excitement. What had lost? Missing home? I called home every now and then. I will be back in another few weeks. Friends? Sometimes I become jerk but still I'll try my best to be a good buddy. Love? Hmm..skip this. Never go through a real relationship. Study? I'm doing pretty good although I am just average student. Huh, sometimes I really want better grade but first I should change my way of study. So, what had missing?

Medicine Term VS Layman Term

Some layman terms that I knew before entering medicine college which are related with medicine.


urat
In layman term this referring to the vein but unfortunately this is a wrong term. Actually, it is referring to the nerve.


keruping
It refers to blackish dead tissue overlying the previously injured tissue (eschar).


otot
Among layman it always thought as bulk of muscles on arm (referring to the biceps muscle) but actually otot = muscle. So not only the biceps but our whole body having it!


kuman
I think it refers to bacteria (only?)


akut
Malay translation for acute. Mistakenly thought as less dangerous than chronic. Acute = rapid onset. Can be as serious outcome of disease as chronic.

kronik
Always thought as a serious outcome of a disease but actually it means slow onset/progression.

paru-paru berair
Is it pneumonia? Pulmonary oedema? If translated, pulmonary oedema is the correct one.

keputihan
Layman term for vaginal discharge

These are some of the words that I could think of. A lot of words still remain...may be you can add up?

A Dream Trying To Become True

I will become a doctor, Insha-Allah. But in the meantime, I crave to do something. Hmm..is it approprite to use 'crave'? It sounds I really want to do it. Anyway, it is just a dream. Never make any attempt to become a reality. Yet. It is just a thought. Whether it will become true one day, it depends on me. I don't think I will do it right now or somewhere near in future but I think I will proceed after 10 years. Or maybe more than that. Who knows. So, what is it the dream I'm talking about? I want to write a book. Yes, that is. Writing a book. Becoming an author. I haven't decide whether it is fiction or non-fiction. Maybe I have lots of imagination towards something but it is not necessary that I will write a fiction book. But, who knows I'm interested later. What should I write about? Hmm..let me worry about it later. Maybe the book tells the story of my life. Or maybe a view of something. Or maybe about medicine. I don't know yet. But before that, I need to sharpen my literature. And gather the materials, of course. I don't have specific plan yet but sooner or later, I hope it become true.

Writing a book...a pending dream

LOST

Ever lost before?

Lost your touch?

Lost your idea?

Or your hope?

Or maybe your spirit?

Or even you think that something is missing but you don't know what had lost from you?

You don't know what to do.

You don't know what to tell.

You're just lost.

Where am I? What I am doing here? Where should I go? What am I supposed to do?

Is there anyone out there?

Why is so empty?

Where is everyone?

Am I blind?

Too many questions but there are no answers for that.

.....

Still lost in the middle of the day.

Hoping to find a way out...but where?

Is there a really way out?

Celupan Allah

صِبۡغَةَ ٱللَّهِ‌ۖ وَمَنۡ أَحۡسَنُ مِنَ ٱللَّهِ صِبۡغَةً۬‌ۖ وَنَحۡنُ لَهُ ۥ عَـٰبِدُونَ

(Katakanlah wahai orang-orang yang beriman: Agama Islam, yang kami telah sebati dengannya ialah): Celupan Allah (yang mencorakkan seluruh kehidupan kami dengan corak Islam) dan siapakah yang lebih baik celupannya daripada Allah? (Kami tetap percayakan Allah) dan kepadaNyalah kami beribadat.

(Al-Baqarah : 138)

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Apakah tahap keimanan kita yang sebenar? Adakah cara hidup Islam benar-benar sebati dengan kehidupan kita? Adakah kita Muslim seperti sudu yang disadur dengan emas/perak? Hanya indah pada luaran. Islam hanya pada nama semata-mata. ATAU, kehidupan berlandaskan Islam yang meliputi segenap aspek. Bagai isi dengan kuku. Bak roti yang dicelup dalam air....basahnya memenuhi setiap inci. Itulah sebenarnya keimanan yang dikehendaki. Islam bukan hanya pada nama tetapi juga pada tutur kata, pada tindak-tanduk dan amalan juga pada kehidupan sehari-hari. Celupan Allah yang menghiasi jata diri dan mewarnakan corak hidup kita. Tanpanya, alangkah ruginya manusia. Hidup tanpa panduan dan jalan yang benar. Hidup tanpa matlamat yang hakiki. Hidup yang sia-sia.

- cetusan tatkala keresahan jiwa melanda -

Renungan Untuk Diri

Perbualan dengan mama semalam:

"Erm block 4 ni, Along sibuk sikit. Jadual packed. Kelas ade sampai hari Sabtu. Tu yang buat Along telefon lambat sikit"

"Takpe, kan memang macam tu belajar medic. Along expect tak, akan sibuk macam ni belajar medic sebelum ni?"kata mama.

"Tak juga. Ingatkan lagi sibuk. Dulu masuk kat INTEC, lecturer selalu cakap nanti tak cukup tidur, stress memanjang. Ok je, cukup je tidur. Still boleh tidur 6-8 jam."

"Ok la tu. Along masak tak?"

"Busy sikit la mama. Tak sempat nak masak. Delivery je dari kedai."

"Ala, masak yang simple-simple kan boleh? Goreng ayam, lepas tu masak sayur sikit."

"Takde masa la ma. Kalau masak nanti, dah ambil masa. Nak kejar dengan study pulak. Hehe, kalau dah namanya malas nak masak, memang macam-macam alasan bagi."

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Apa yang boleh disimpulkan?

First, tentang tanggungjawab. Walaupun sibuk macam mana sekalipun itu tak menjadi batu penghalang untuk melaksanakan kewajipan sebagai anak. Telefon ibu bapa apabila berkesempatan dan jika boleh dilakukan dengan kerap. Apa salahnya berkorban sedikit duit untuk memberitahu perkhabaran kepada orang tua yang tertanya-tanya tentang kita. Dan saya akui, sepanjang berada di luar negara, acapkali saya yang menelefon keluarga dan bukan sebaliknya. Tidak kisah untuk berbelanja beratus-ratus rupee untuk satu panggilan yang dapat memadamkan kerinduan terhadap keluarga.

Kedua, tentang pelajaran. Harus sentiasa menjadi keutamaan. Dan sememangnya keutamaan yang paling penting pada ketika ini. Waktu yang kritikal dalam hidup kerana kala inilah yang akan menentukan masa depan. Sibukkan diri dengan soal pelajaran untuk menghindari perkara-perkara yang sia-sia atau yang mungkin menjerumuskan kita ke lembah maksiat. Juga melaksanakan amanah yang dipikulkan oleh penaja yang telah bersusah-payah membiayai pengajian. Indirectly, amanah dari rakyat (melalui cukai pendapatan).

Ketiga, mungkin hanya relevan untuk diri sendiri. Perbaiki skill memasak. Walaupun simple sekalipun haruslah meningkatkan kekerapan memasak. Memasak sebenarnya dapat mengurangkan stress. Bagi sesetengah orang, memasak mungkin menambahkan lagi stress tetapi itu tidak berlaku kepada saya. Tambahan lagi, kualiti makanan adalah terjamin dan kita dapat memasak makanan mengikut selera kita. Apatah lagi memasak untuk kuantiti yang banyak untuk dikongsi bersama-sama orang lain. Mengeratkan ukhuwah yang sedia ada.

Keempat, rehat yang mencukupi. Belajar bidang perubatan seringkali disinonimkan dengan jadual waktu yang padat, waktu rehat yang sedikit dan tidur yan kurang mencukupi. Ada benarnya tetapi masih kurang tepat. Mungkin juga disebabkan belajar di MMMC, banyak perkara yang sebenarnya 'memanjakan' diri. Masih nak bermain-main dalam bidang ini? I don't think it's a right idea.

- Life is never easy but we can ease our life -

Post Practical Exam

Alhamdulillah, first and foremost I would dedicate my gratitude to Him for ease the examination for me. Although I think I did not do it well, I hope I have done the best that I could. Hmmm.. still lots of thing I need to learn. All my clinical performances I did with clumsiness. It's whether I forget to sterilize the area or I forget to wash my hands and wear gloves. Oh, not to forget I connect the catheter wrongly to the urine bag till the lecturer said 'What are you doing?' loudly to me. Everyone looked at me and asking me what happened during that time. And my suturing performance is really bad. I don't have enough time to finish it. Hmmm...I'm not worried about my marks but I really worried if I cannot do it correctly in real situation. I felt really nervous when performed it. I need to practise more if I want to master the skill. And I also need to stay calm and focus. I'm confident that I can do it better in future. It's just the beginning. Nobody is perfect. And learnt from your mistakes is the best way to improve yourself. You never know in future. You maybe clumsy, easily distracted and shaky when you do it for the first time but as time passed by you managed to overcome it. Being a doctor is not you get good marks in theory examination only but also your other skills. I'm not hoping I get good marks but I hope that I can learn more than that. I knew my weakness and I'll try to fix it so that it would not happen twice.

Doa Untuk Orang Yang Dipuji

اللهم لا تؤاخذني بما يقولون ، واغفر لي مالا يعلمون (واجعلني خيراً مما يظنون)

Ertinya : Ya Allah janganlah kamu mengapa-apakanku kerana apa yang disebut oleh mereka, dan ampunkankan daku berkaitan perkara yang mereka tidak ketahui (jadikanlah daku lebih baik dari apa yang mereka sangkakan)
(Riwayat Abi Syaibah, no 35703, 7/242 ; At-Tarikh Al-Kabir, 2/58)

* dipetik dari laman web zaharuddin.net

Post Exam

Finishing the theory part for Block 3 examination.
Waiting the practical part taking place.
And I haven't finish my journals yet.
Bad habit!
Wait till eleventh hour to do all that, and all that I get is tiredness.
Pray for me.
Just can't wait to end this.
Must start cooking again!
(Exam period is the season where I abandoned the kitchen, don't care about anything except books.)

Quran

Make QURAN

The SPRING of your heart

The LIGHT of your chest

The DISPELLER of your sorrows

The ERASER of your anxiety and sorrow



* thanks ukhti Nurani for a wonderful SMS

Syukur...hanya di hujung lidah?

bagaimana cara yang sebenarnya utk kita menyatakan kesyukuran?
cukup dengan Alhamdulillah?
lidah mudah menuturkan tetapi adakah hati membenarkan?
syukran...terima kasih...alhamdulillah
bukan sekadar ungkapan di bibir tetapi membawa maksud yang lebih dari itu
apalagi dalam menyatakan kesyukuran kepada-Nya
iman...'hadiah' terindah yang dianugerahkan
cukupkah hanya dengan mengucapkan syukur
suburkan iman juga cara utk bersyukur
seperti pohon yang memerlukan siraman air dan jagaan rapi
begitu juga iman yang perlu kepada 'pembajaan'
kala dikurniakan apa yang kita inginkan
istiqamahkah rasa syukur itu?
atau bermain-main di bibir saat-saat permulaan
kemudian rasa itu semakin luput
dek apa yang dihajati telah didapati
jadi...syukur itu adakah sementara fungsinya?
berterima kasih atas pemberian tetapi lupa pada Pemberi
kenapa nilai syukur lekang dalam kehidupan
seolah-olah tidak mengenang budi
seperti kacang lupakan kulit
mahukah menjadi hamba yang sebegitu?
bersungguh-sungguh meminta daripada-Nya
dan kemudian melupakan Dia apabila hajat telah dipenuhi
sungguh tidak malu!
bagaimana mahu bersyukur?
syukur dengan lidah mudah saja dilakukan
ucapkanlah Alhamdulillah
syukur dengan perbuatan?
laksanakan perintah-Nya, jauhkan diri dari kemurkaan-Nya
sekalipun Dia Maha Pemurah
janganlah menggunakan alasan untuk menidakkan syukur
bukan mudah membuktikan kesyukuran dengan perbuatan
hanya mereka yang sabar dan ikhlas mampu melakukan
syukur dengan hati?
adakah dengan 'memaksa' hati untuk bersyukur?
ikhlaskah jika melakukan sedemikian
cukupkah dengan bermonolog dalam hati, 'aku bersyukur pada-Mu ya Allah'
nilai syukur terlalu tinggi
tidak cukup sekadar dengan ucapan
perlulah diiringi dengan ketaqwaan
syukur pada 'hadiah'
juga pada Pemberi 'hadiah'

Dan (ingatlah) ketika Tuhan kamu memberitahu: Demi sesungguhnya! Jika kamu bersyukur nescaya Aku akan tambahi nikmatKu kepada kamu dan demi sesungguhnya, jika kamu kufur ingkar sesungguhnya azabKu amatlah keras. (Ibrahim:7)

Basuh Kain, Dosa dan Taubat

Saya sangat suka membasuh pakaian sendiri. Bukan menggunakan khidmat mesin basuh tetapi menggunakan TANGAN. Ye, mencuci kain baju secara manual. Pelik? Mungkin ramai yang beranggapan sedemikian jika saya menyatakan. Ada ke lagi orang membasuh baju dengan tangan pada zaman teknologi sebegini? Bukankah lebih senang, mudah dan cepat jika membiarkan saja mesin basuh melakukannya? Tak perlu bersusah payah. Atau boleh sahaja menghantar ke kedai dobi.

Apa yang seronoknya basuh baju secara manual? Macam buang masa je sedangkan ia boleh diselesaikan dalam masa yang singkat. Apa faedah yang saya dapat? Tangan pun boleh kering kalau hari-hari terkena serbuk pencuci. Bak istilah dalam Forensic Medicine, "washerwomen's hand" iaitu istilah yang digunakan untuk menggambarkan keadaan tangan orang yang mati lemas (bleached, wrinkled and soddened). Hmmm...

Membasuh baju tanpa bantuan mesin sebenarnya mendatangkan kepuasan tersendiri. Kita tahu bahagian mana pada pakaian kita terdapat kesan yang perlu disental dengan lebih kuat untuk menanggalkan kotoran. Pakaian tidak rosak dengan cepat dan tahan lebih lama. Kepuasan selepas melihat pakaian yang dijemur selepas dibasuh dapat dirasa. More satisfied!

Satu perkara yang saya sentiasa renungkan semasa membasuh baju.

Alangkah baiknya jika hati manusia ini dapat dibersihkan seperti mudahnya membasuh baju!

Hati yang karat dengan dosa boleh dianalogikan dengan pakaian yang kotor. Apa perasaan kita apabila melihat kesan kotoran pada baju/seluar/kain/tudung? Tentu kita akan cepat-cepat membersihkannya. Apatah lagi kalau terkena kesan kopi/makanan/minyak dan sebagainya yang mungkin agak sedikit sukar untuk dihilangkan (kadang-kadang tak boleh hilang langsung). Kita mahu pakaian kita bersih dan kemas. Dan untuk menghilangkan kesan kotoran degil kita akan gunakan bermacam-macam cara untuk melakukannya. Mungkin menggunakan Clorox, atau menggunakan Daia atau apa-apa cara lain yang dapat difikirkan. Kalau kesan itu tak dapat dihilangkan, alamatnya tension nyaaa!!!

Jadi, mengapa tidak hati dibersihkan sedemikian rupa? Kita sentiasa melakukan dosa-dosa kecil tanpa kita sedari. Hati kita sering terdorong kepada perkara-perkara mazmumah. Mungkin kita bersangka yang bukan-bukan terhadap teman-teman kita. Itu dah menjadi dosa. Kita bersikap tidak jujur dalam urusan seharian. Juga kita berdosa. Kita terlibat dengan perkara-perkara dikira syubhah dalam agama. Bertambah lagi dosa yang tak terlihat. Entiti sebeginilah menyebabkan hati menjadi kotor. Hati yang kotor menjauhkan kita dengan Allah.Kita rasa malas untuk melaksanakan perintah-Nya. Kita sukar menghadirkan rasa khusyuk dalam solat. Kita berdoa sambil lewa. Kita kurang merasa keperluannya kita menjaga diri kita daripada melakukan perbuatan-perbuatan yang fasiq.

Hati yang selalu mengingati-Nya akan merasakan dirinya kotor. Kotor dengan dosa-dosa yang tak terlihat. Kotor dengan perkara-perkara syubhah yang dilakukan tanpa disedari. Kotor kerana berasa lalai dengan amanah dan tanggungjawab. Orang yang mempunyai sifat sebegini akan sentiasa cuba 'membersihkan' hatinya. Padanya, kehidupan ini hanyalah sebagai jambatan kepada Hari Akhirat. Dia akan berusaha menjaga diri daripada terlontar ke lembah yang boleh merosakkan dirinya.


Bagaimana seharusnya hati 'dibersihkan'? Allah telah menggariskan bermacam-macam panduan untuk manusia menjalani kehidupan di dunia. Makan rezeki dari sumber yang haram/syubhah patut dielakkan sama sekali. Kerana inilah salah satu penyumbang kerosakan hati. Hindari daripada melakukan perkara-perkara yang makruh. Apatah lagi perkara-perkara yang sudah terang lagi bersuluh telah dinyatakan dalam Al-Quran sebagai haram. Hal ini disebabkan akan menyebabkan hati menjadi jauh dari-Nya. Sentiasa berzikir kerana zikir itu pembersih jiwa. Berpuasa sunat dijadikan rutin agar nafsu dapat dikawal denan sebaik-baiknya. Solat-solat sunat seperti solat sunat taubat yang dijadikan sebagai sebahagian daripada amalan dapat 'menyental' kesan-kesan dosa dalam hati. Jangan biarkan diri bergelumang dengan kemungkaran kerana kita tidak mengetahui bila nyawa kita akan diambil. Sentiasalah berharap kepada-Nya agar kita dijauhkan daripada perkara-perkara yang boleh merosakkan hati.


...Basuhlah hati anda dengan rasa keinsafan...

Comparison of My Character With Anime Character

It's just for fun! Maybe the tests have some points but they do not necessary represent my characters.

Which Sailormoon character are you?

You are very intelligent and love to read books, you are shy and quiet in public but when you're with your friends you become the true you. You always want the best for everyone and would never be mean, you are kind hearted and always helping those who want your help. Your dream is to be a doctor or something alike. Be proud! ;)

Which Ouran High School Host Club Character Are You?

You are Haruhi. You are a straight forward and the prickly minded of the Host Club. Although your independent and simple personality clashes with the much more outgoing hosts', you cares for each of them deeply and enjoys being a host. You are also skilled at household chores!

Source: Facebook tests

Happy Mother's Day

Happy Mother's Day, mama!

Sorry for not sending anything for you but I always pray that you're always happy and healthy.

Pray so that you become a good Muslimah, a great wife and a loving mother.

Nothing can exchange for your love that you have showered and sacrifice that you have made.

You're a good listener and great companion.

May Allah bless you here and Hereafter.

I missed you a lot....

MSP accomplished!!

The end of the MSP!!!

What a huge relief!

I'm counting for the presentation day to come and after several hurdles which coming in our way, 6th May has been choosen for the Poster Presentation Day of Mentored Student Project.

proudly me

The event started at 8 a.m. and rolled up its curtain at 5 p.m.

Location: Counselling Hall of manipal.edu building

manipal.edu Building

My group consists of three people that include me, Debbie and Hamizah.

same theme with poster

Our topic for this project is about yoga. Why we choose yoga? To be frank, first and foremost we do not agree with the topic proposed by our mentor. Since it is our project, we do think that we have the right to select it our own. Secondly, we want to play safe. Yoga provides more accesible information compared other topics (I guess so). Thirdly, we hardly have free time to do intensive study on difficult topics (hmm..yoga still a difficult task to carry out) since our course is really packed. So, we choose our study on yoga.

Our topic: A Study on the Background of Yoga and the Level of Awareness Among Medical Student

Sigh...what a long header!

Everything went well and lecturers seem like the overall event.

Comment from lecturers:

Good job!

Nice work!

Well done!

What a professional presentation!

I do think those comments are too bland (I really wanted real critics). But anyway, I'm really grateful that our work appreciated by lecturers. It may be just a simple research but from this we learnt a lot about how to do research.

It seems everyone work hard for the project.

Some posters which attract me : Evans syndrome, Medical Negligence, Echocardiography, CathLab (don't have their pictures, unfortunately)

Oh...the most favourite topic chosen by Batch 19 students is breast cancer. 4 groups chose it as their study field (I wonder why??). Luckily, every group discuss in different aspects.

Besides lecturers, our fellow senior and juniors also dropped by.

It's tiring but it was a really great experience. Looking forward to do my own research in future!

p/s: I think I should give some view about my study on yoga. Maybe next time.

This Week...

Schedule for this week:

Tuesday - Mentored Student Project Poster Presentation

Wednesday - Extra class from 8 am to 9 am for Microbiology

Thursday - Problem Based Learning for Pathology

Friday - Self Directed Learning for Pharmacology

Saturday - First gathering of all usrah's group here

Sunday - Iqra' (learn on how to recite Al-Quran accordingly)

**a hectic life for a week**

Sekeping Hati Bersuara

Hati bergejolak mahu menulis tetapi tidak tahu apa yang mahu diperkatakan. Takut-takut mengambil masa yang terlalu panjang sehingga mengganggu jadual belajar. Tetapi hati mendesak untuk mengeluarkan apa yang terbuku dalam isi hati. Apa yang tak kenanya? Apa yang meresahkan jiwa? Entahlah...selalu juga tidak bertemu jawapannya.

Mungkin juga persoalan hidup di sini.

Mungkin masalah kebejatan akhlak yang semakin serius di Manipal.

IYA yang pernah 'ditegur' kerana bersikap pasif.

Usrah yang tidak menampakkan matlamatnya.

Ukhuwah dengan simpulan yang rapuh.

Kekangan masa yang adakalanya keterlaluan.

Di manakah silapnya? Apa yang kurangnya?

Cabaran besar yang perlu dilalui apabila diri sendiri diletakkan dalam posisi yang besar amanahnya dan semua mata pasti menilai diri dengan posisi tersebut. Segala tindak-tanduk dan tutur kata akan menjadi perhatian.

Hati mengatakan diri tidak layak. Belum cukup sempurna ilmu yang ada. Masih mencari-cari. Masih lagi belajar. Masih mengharap kepada dorongan daripada yang lebih berkelayakan. Belum layak digelar naqibah. Belum cukup mantap untuk mendukung usaha dakwah. Namun, tanggungjawab tetap tanggungjawab. Biar sesusah mana, biarpun ilmu masih cetek, biarpun ketandusan teman-teman sefikrah, biar terpaksa berkorban masa, wang dan tenaga.

Hati ini merindui teman-teman kejauhan yang selalu mengingatkan diri ini.

Pada Dia aku mengadu. Pada Yang Maha Esa aku memohon kekuatan. Kekuatan agar tidak tergelincir dari landasan yang ditetapkan-Nya. Berdoa agar dipermudahkan jalan dan diringankan beban.

Sukar berhadapan dengan individu-individu yang tidak mahu menerima walaupun sang pemberi telah bersedia. Komitmen belajar lebih penting daripada peringatan, kata mereka. Benarkah begitu? Atau silap sendiri yang mahu usrah secara serius? Atau perlu melakukan promotion yang lebih menarik? Atau perlu mengikut rentak mereka?

Di mana permulaannya? Ke mana pengakhirannya? Soalan yang perlu diungkapkan agar matlamat lebih jelas. Supaya visi mudah dicapai. Agar tahu arah tujuan.

Kenapa mahu berusrah? Lontaran soalan yang berulang-ulang.

Inilah proses tarbiah. Didikan hati agar tidak layu. Siraman jiwa agar ia tumbuh segar. Saling mengingatkan. Saling berkongsi cerita dan pengalaman. Saling menampung kekurangan. Menambahkan persefahaman. Mengeratkan perhubungan.

Dan soalan itu bergema kembali. Layakkah digelar dai'e?

Saiful Nisa'

"Saya nak korang semua beri satu nama untuk kumpulan usrah ini."

"Nama apa ye nak letak?Tak terfikir pulak nak letak nama untuk usrah ni. Kalau dalam bahasa Arab lagi best."

"Suka nama bunga tak?Letak nama mawar as nama usrah ni.Wardah.Nak lagi best boleh letak Wardatul Islam, yang bermaksud mawar Islam."

"Ok ke. Mana tahu ade orang tak suka bunga pulak."
"Eh,suka...suka. Tak kisah pun"

"Takpun letak nama Saiful Nisa',"

"Hmmm...sedap juga. Bolehla, Saiful Nisa'...pedang wanita"

"Wah...moga-moga kalian semua menjadi pedang yang berjuang untuk Islam"

"Macam nama nak dekat Saifulislam je. Hehe...tak tiru tau"


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Bermulalah era Saiful Nisa' dalam pembentukan sebagai mujahidah. Moga-moga Allah menetapkan hati-hati kami pada jalan-Nya. Mudah-mudahan nama ini menjadi peniup semangat untuk berhalaqah. Semoga dapat manfaat semasa berusrah. Doa kami agar kami, 'pedang yang tumpul' ini akan menjadi pedang yang tajam dan bersinar untuk kegemilangan Islam pada masa akan datang...Insha-Allah

During Pathology Class

Dean said:

You can have big heart poetically but you should not have big heart anatomically

Big heart (poetically) = kind, generous, etc...

Big heart (anatomically) = left ventricular hypertrophy (it's not a good sign to your health)

Summer of Manipal

Intense summer. That is the most suitable word to describe the condition in Manipal right now. It is really hot nowadays. 39°C. Even higher compared with normal human body temperature. It is better to stay at home. Hot, dry, dusty...I don't think any people can stand for this kind of weather (never mind the locals; they can withstand the weather). You walk outside for 5-10 minutes and you will feel dehydrate. You will go for cotton material for your clothes. You will hoping that rain will come to cool down the atmosphere. You wish that you can wear anything as minimum as possible. You will use the umbrella yet you think it's just not enough. You will get heat stroke if you play outside too much. You will feel the tiredness during the mid-day and just want to lay down on your bed. You don't need your blanket or comforter when you are sleeping. You switch on the fan to the maximum yet still complaining it is just too hot. You will go to the places which are air-conditioned (namely library). You will crave for iced drink and ice cream. You are happy because your laundry dried up so fast but you need to change your clothes much more frequent (it is compensated anyway).

Raining season will come soon anyway and during that time how you wish for the sunshine!

Europe Trip 2008

Rindu. Jari-jari ini sepurnama lamanya tidak menari-nari memainkan irama di atas keyboard. Niat untuk mengupdate blog sentiasa tertangguh. Ada sahaja halangannya. Sebulan laman ini terbiar sepi. Dek kerana cuti dan kembara ke Eropah sepanjang percutian tidak memungkinkan blog ini 'hidup'. Terasa keghairahan 'menulis' blog semakin menurun. Mungkin sahaja disebabkan bermulanya Blok III tahun kedua yang menuntut perhatian yang lebih. Ditambah pula baki Mentored Student Project yang perlu disiapkan secepat yang mungkin agar tidak menjadi beban di kemudian hari. Lelah. Belum sempat bernafas, minggu ini diasak dengan kelas-kelas yang tak pernah putus-putus. Tiada masa untuk bersukaria. Untuk berkongsi pengalaman perjalanan ke tanah Inggeris bersama-sama teman-teman pun terselit di antara waktu rehat. 'Kembali ke dunia realiti, meninggalkan dunia fantasi' itulah tema yang bermain-main di bibir. Realiti sebagai pelajar perubatan bertemankan kuliah, ulangkaji, nota dan sebagainya. Fantasi berada di bumi Eropah yang perlu ditinggalkan. Bercuti, bercuti juga tetapi jangan sampai lupa diri. Tujuan bercuti pun untuk merehatkan minda agar lebih bersemangat untuk menghadapi Blok III ini. Ingin sahaja melakarkan blog tentang percutian ke Eropah. Tapi rasanya tak perlulah menceritakan ke mana kaki ini berpijak dan tempat yang dilawati secara terperinci, cukuplah dengan gambar-gambar yang telah diupload dalam laman fotopages. Kita berbicara soal kembara dari sudut yang berlainan.

Melihat 'dunia' lain. Ya, berpijak di benua Eropah meninggalkan kesan yang tak mungkin luput di ingatan. Keseronokan yang dirasai tidak sama dengan perasaan yang dialami ketika menjelajah utara India. Tentu sahaja berbeza. Perjalanan bermula dari lapangan kapal terbang di Bangalore, transit di Dubai dan mendarat di Manchester mengambil masa selama 12 jam. Mujur sahaja ada transit. Jika tidak, peluang untuk mengalami venous thrombosis sangat tinggi lantaran kaki tetap dan tidak bergerak-gerak untuk jangka masa yang lama. Manchester. "Itulah port kita" kata temanku yang menguruskan perjalanan kami bertujuh. Kenapa Manchester? Itulah destinasi yang tiketnya boleh didapati dengan murah. Hanya Rs31813 pergi balik. Manchester pun menjadi pilihan kami. Berkampung selama 4 hari di Rusholme berdekatan The Curry Mile benar-benar meninggalkan pengalaman menarik. Mana mungkin lupa saat terindah tatkala menuntut hadiah hari lahir daripada teman-teman seperjalanan di Old Trafford. Hadiah sempena ulangtahun kelahiran ke-22.

dream comes true

32 - pemain kegemaran

pasukan yang menjadi pilihan hati

Langkah semakin panjang. Ke selatan singgah di Nottingham dan dua hari kemudian berada di Liverpool sebelum berangkat ke Paris, Perancis. Berjumpa dengan teman-teman lama di Nottingham mengingatkan semula sedikit sebanyak kenangan di INTEC. Masih seperti dulu. Tidak banyak yang berubah. Mungkin juga cara berfikir dan berinteraksi yang mungkin berbeza jika dibandingkan dua tahun lepas. Paris meninggalkan satu kenangan yang sukar dilupakan. Bagaimana kami berenam tersesat di sebuah stesen kereta api dan mujur seorang wanita Muslim dalam usia pertengahan bersungguh-sungguh mahu membantu kami agar dapat sampai ke destinasi yang sepatutnya. Ibarat ayam bercakap dengan itik, itulah perumpamaan komunikasi kami. Wanita itu tidak tahu berbahasa Inggeris manakala kami tidak mahir bertutur dalam bahasa Perancis. Saling membuat isyarat dengan tangan dan tulisan akhirnya kami sedikit menangkap apa yang cuba disampaikannya. Dia mempelawa kami pergi ke rumahnya tetapi kami terpaksa menolak memandangkan kami perlu berkejar ke hotel untuk check in. Kami berterima kasih atas pertolongannya itu. Allah sahaja dapat membalas jasanya. Terasa ukhuwah Islam yang hangat di bumi Paris. Bila sahaja kami berjalan-jalan kedengaran salam diberikan. Adakalanya kami tidak mengetahui dari mana salam itu kedengaran. Jawab dalam hati je la. Hmm..adakah keadaan yang sama berlaku di Malaysia?TIDAK. Kerana kita lebih senang menggunakan hai berbanding Assalamualaikum. Petang itu, kami menuju ke Eiffel Tower sebagai destinasi pertama kami. Awak tak sempat naik Eiffel Tower la Damia. Kena beratur panjang. Kalau nak naik, kita sepatutnya pergi awal-awal sikit. Sedikit kecewa. Tak mengapalah bukan rezeki nak naik Eiffel Tower memandangkan aku perlu berkejar ke lapangan terbang Orly Sud pada lewat petang. Penerbangan ke Prague tidak harus terlepas!

Bumi Paris ditinggalkan setelah berjaya menjejakkan kaki ke Eiffel Tower. Setelah bergambar lebih kurang kami berpisah. Rakan-rakan yang lain menuju je Patheon dan mereka perlu berhenti di stesen Notre Dame dan aku pula menuju ke stesen Antony. Dipendekkan cerita, aku tiba di lapangan terbang Ruzyne sedikit lewat daripada jadual asal. Gara-gara seorang penumpang yang tiada tempat untuk duduk walaupun memiliki tiket! Disambut oleh teman serumah di INTEC, dan tiba di rumahnya hampir jam 11, aku kelelahan. Tiga hari lepas di Nottingham, dua hari lepas di Liverpool, semalam di Paris dan hari ini di Prague tentu sahaja aku kehabisan tenaga. Lenguh satu badan berjalan tidak berhenti-henti. Padahnya keesokan harinya, hampir separuh hari dihabiskan di atas katil. Mujur juga tidak ke mana-mana pada hari itu.

Menghabiskan beberapa hari berjalan-jalan di sekitar Prague sambil ditemani Mutia sebelum melabuhkan diri ke Hradec Kralove bersama-sama Nabilah Hanis sememangnya menjadi kenangan yang indah. Aah...alangkah rindunya zaman-zaman semasa berada di INTEC. Alhamdulillah misi menjejakkan kaki ke bumi Republik Czech tertunai sudah sejak sekian lama. Ni yang untung kalau datang sorang-sorang, ramai kawan yang boleh belanja makan. Aku tersenyum mendengar kenyataan itu. Apalagi makan aiskrim pada musim sedingin itu!

Tiba saat untuk terbang ke London setelah seminggu berada di bumi Bohemia. Perjalanan selama 2 jam terasa meletihkan. Tambahan lagi, bas yang sepatutnya berhenti di Oxford Street tidak seperti yang difikirkan. Terlajak sehingga ke Victoria Station, teman seperjalanan yang telah berada di London sejak dua hari lepas cepat-cepat dihubungi. Hampir panik dibuatnya. Mujur sahaja dapat berjumpa semula. Malam itu, aku keseorangan di Malaysian Hall memandangkan rakan-rakan lain berpindah ke MARA House.

Menonton Wicked, membeli-belah di Oxford Street, menaiki cruise di sepanjang Sungai Thames sambil menyaksikan keindahan Tower Bridge pada waktu malam yang mengasyikkan, berjalan-jalan di Trafalgar Square....memang memenatkan tetapi kegembiraan yang terselinap menghilangkan rasa penat yang menghurung setiap inci badan.

Destinasi terakhir kami; Ireland. Yang paling ditunggu-tunggu oleh sekian ramai. Berbanding diriku yang menjadikan Republik Czech sebagai destinasi prioriti. Hampir setiap tempat yang dikunjungi, perkara-perkara yang sama sahaja yang dilakukan. Membeli-belah, berjumpa teman-teman lama, makan-makan, bersiar-siar di tempat-tempat menjadi tarikan dan seumpamanya. Ada satu tempat yang dikunjungi yang paling menarik hati. Di mana di situ terdapat Al-Quran manuskrip lama yang menjadi bahan pameran. Masha-Allah...indah sekali. Chester Beatty Library, lebih dari sekadar berfungsi sebagai perpustakaan.

Dan sepanjang perjalanan tersebut terlalu banyak pengalaman yang dikutip. Nilai ukhuwah yang tinggi, elemen kasih sayang dan rasa cukup apa yang ada menjadikan kembara ini bukan bersifat pelancongan semata-mata. Ibrah yang berharga diambil dan dijadikan pegangan. Bumi Allah itu sememangnya luas. Pepatah 'jauh perjalanan luas pemandangan' membenarkan jua. Moga kesempatan akan datang, akan digunakan sebaik-baiknya berjalan-jalan di bumi ciptaan-Nya sambil memikirkan kebesaran dan keagungan ciptaan-Nya.

~** C i R c L e **~

Circle means forever..no beginning and no end. Let our good relationship be, not just and endless line but a circle that goes ON and ON for a LIFEtime

aku mencari DIA

Aku mencari Dia
Di tengah-tengah kesedihan
Saat-saat ku kedukaan
Detik-detik ku memerlukan
Tatkala aku kesepian
Sewaktu aku dalam kepayahan
Di celah-celah kehidupan


Aku mencari Dia
Dia yang paling memahami
Dia yang paling dekat
Dia yang sentiasa bersama-samaku
Dia yang mendengar masalahku
Dia yang melihat diriku


Aku mencari Dia
Dengan segala kerinduan
Dengan penuh harapan
Dengan rasa rendah diri
Dengan rasa malu
Dengan rasa kerdil
Dengan penuh keinginan hati


Aku mencari Dia
Tatkala hati kekalutan
Tatkala jiwa keresahan
Tatkala rasa kesesakan
Tatkala lemas dengan dugaan


Kuharap aku selalu mencari dia
Walau saat dilanda ribut perasaan
Walau disinari mentari keceriaan
Walau dunia kelam keseorangan
Walau dalam apa jua keadaan
Aku akan sentiasa mencari Dia

Countdown

Two papers left
Three more days
Four more days to one-month holiday
Five more days to go to Bangalore
Eight more days to start the journey
....i'm waiting....

DIA tahu apa yang terbaik

Kebelakangan ini aku menerima banyak berita yang mengejutkan dan salah satunya benar-benar melukakan hati. Air mata dan suara mama jadi peneman. Namun tatkala membaca ayat-ayat-ayatNya:


..sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah amat dekat [2:214]


Dan sungguh Kami benar-benar menguji kamu sehingga Kami mengetahui orang-orang yan benar-benar berjihad dan bersabar di antara kamu dan Kami akan uji perihal kamu [47:31]


Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi [pula] kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. [2:216]


Dan terima kasih kepada Kak Fid atas tazkirah yang dipetik dari buku La Tahzan:

MENGAPA HARUS BERSEDIH JIKA ANDA MEMILIKI 6 FORMULA?
1)Percaya sepenuhya kepada Allah
2)Kesedaranku bahawa semua yg telah Allah takdirkan akan terjadi
3)Sabar adalah senjata terbaik yg mesti dipergunakan oleh org2 yg sedang mendapat ujian
4) Jika saya tidak bersikap sabar, lalu apa lg yg boleh saya lakukan? Dan kesedihan tidak akan boleh membantuku
5) Mungkin saja saya akan berada dlm keadaan yg lebih buruk daripada keadaan saya sekarang ini
6) Dari semasa ke semasa jalan keluar akan terus terbuka


Terima kasih kerana mengingatkan saya walaupun Kak Fid tak tahu apa yang terjadi sebenarnya.



~Dia Yang Maha Mengetahui~

YESTERDAY

Yesterday

Just another day to let by

Just another moment to seek through

Just another memory to be remembered

Just another dream to fly away

Just another thought that cross the mind

Yesterday

Farther and farther it goes

Left behind the sorrows

Bitterness faded

Anger dissipated

Frustration ended

Worries are gone

Fears went by

Troubles will say goodbye

Yesterday

Never be the same again

Mistakes do not occur twice

Learn from the past

Redo the script for tomorrow

Regain back the lost hope

Rewrite the future

Rebuild the life once again

Yesterday passed by

Broken heart will be mend

Joys refill the emptiness

Pain is unhurt anymore

Love finally find its way

Breaking NEWS!!!

Manipal was raining today. Unbelievable. It supposed to be the peak of hot weather. Winter but hot and dry. Strange...but according to my lecturer, now is winter season. I knew it winter but aren't it supposed to be cold? But, it's hot here. Really hot. Hmm..seems the weather does not follow the law of nature anymore.

Tribute to Everyone

Thank you so much for everyone who wish for my birthday.

To my mum, I'm so sorry for worrying you. How I wish to get a hug and enjoy a special treat that you would prepare for me. To my father, I wish I can become brighter and get good results which will make you proud. How I wish, I complete my studies so that you would not think too much on how to earn enough money for us. I know you are tired. To my siblings (Abang, Amir, Kak Cik, Amin and Adik), I love you all. Thanks for the sms wishing for Along's birthday.

To my dearest bestfriend, I like your message the most:
Hearts could only love for a while, Feet could only walk some miles, Clothes won't forever be in style, but having you as my friend is forever worthwile. Happy 22nd birthday, Damia.
I would like to share a piece of chocolate-rich cake with you.

To my close friend who put up my birthday wish as his status in YM, I'm really touched.

To all my housemates who celebrated my birthday. Dinner at China Valley, Chocolate Fantasy from Coffee Day and Tiramisu at Piccolo's. A great treat. Plus, a special present: FREE trip to Old Trafford!

For friends who started sending testimonials, cards, smses since few days back, how a wonderful moment I have. Thanks a lot guys!!

To my halaqah's sisters, I'm surprised all of you remembered my birthday eventhough the intensity for the coming university exam fill the mind.

To 4 guys sharing a birthday present dedicated to me, it's a lovely present but I'm too old for that stuff.


Minna...arigato

A Day To Remember

'A year older, a step wiser'

Today 7th February 2008. It's my birthday today. I'm 22 year-old girl(?) already. A girl?Or a woman? Maybe I should say like this '..I'm not a girl, not yet a woman..'. Well, that's sound much better. I would first and foremost express my gratitude to HIM for give me such a wonderful life. Although I have encountered all the bitterness in my life, I knew that's for my sake. So that my life is not just a mere bland life. The moments He gives the tests, He wants me to be a good Muslimah. A better person on each day that have passed by. A humble and faithful servant. A great daughter. An example as an eldest sister. A friend whom others can depend on. An exceptional wife in future. A loving mother to her children. And I am thankful for His guide. For being born as Muslim. For being a real Muslim.

And so yesterday I've cried because just a small matter. Have I forget what He says? That a Muslim cannot say that he/she has strong faith until He tests him/her. I want things to happen according to my plan but it does not seem to happen the way it should be. So, I cried. I almost forget. And then I turned to His Book. I cried again. This time not because the thing which bothering me but due to my recklessness towards Him. Have I ever forget Al-Baqarah:216? Don't I remember As-Saff:2-3? How can I ever forget the promise made as mentioned in Al-An'am:162?

Here I am, haven't change my attitude even a bit. 'Learn to control, Damia, you can do it'. Build up the patience. They are other people behind you. Who support you. Who cherish you. Don't you remember an advice from a friend? 'You cannot settle the problems by shedding tears'. Have you forgot? Your bestfriend says 'I know you're strong. You can overcome all this'. Even if there's no one whom you can talk to, you still have HIM. He never turns you down. It's you who turn Him down.

Look at the bright side. You never know what will He gives you in future. If it's not in this world, it will probably in Afterlife.

Smile...and all your tears will fade away

A Year Left

Time flies so fast...only a year left before leaving Manipal. And this, the dates on the arranged schedule which has been announced by Dean yesterday.

Vacation from 25 August 2008 to 5 October 2008
Comments:
- Longest holiday ever (1 month and a half)
- Can celebrate Eid-ul Fitr in Malaysia with family ^_^
- Last holiday...after that, leaving Manipal already

Semester 5 begins on 6 October 2008
Comments:
- Come back from holiday as the senior most batch
- 6 months left before continuing in MMMC Melaka Campus
- It's clinical posting semester
- Time for 'take revenge' (those trophies are ours,the GREAT batch 19!!!)

Semester 5 ends on 28 February 2009
Comments:
- Finishing the clinical posting exam
- Busy to pack stuffs
- Say farewell to lecturers
- Buys lots of sarees!!!!

Vacation from 1 March 2009 to 22 March 2009
Comments:
- Probably travelling other parts of India for the last time (hope so)
- Back to homeland
- Spend time with family
- Preparing for the new semester
- Put braces (?????)
- Do something (hehe..himitsu)

Semester 6 starts on 23 March 2009
Comments:
- Become the most junior again
- Missing Manipal !!!

ish..ish..ish..

My comment: Melanggar sunatullah...hurmm

Embryos created with DNA from 3 people

LONDON - British scientists say they have created human embryos containing DNA from two women and a man in a procedure that researchers hope might be used one day to produce embryos free of inherited diseases.

Though the preliminary research has raised concerns about the possibility of genetically modified babies, the scientists say that the embryos are still only primarily the product of one man and one woman.

"We are not trying to alter genes, we're just trying to swap a small proportion of the bad ones for some good ones," said Patrick Chinnery, a professor of neurogenetics at Newcastle University involved in the research.

The research was presented at a scientific conference recently, but has not been peer-reviewed or published in a scientific journal.

The process aims to create healthy embryos for couples to avoid passing on genes carrying diseases.

The genes being replaced are the mitochondria, a cell's energy source, which are contained outside the nucleus in a normal female egg. Mistakes in the mitochondria's genetic code can result in serious diseases like muscular dystrophy, epilepsy, strokes and mental retardation.

In their research, Chinnery and colleagues used normal embryos created from one man and one woman that had defective mitochondria in the woman's egg. They then transplanted that embryo into an emptied egg donated from a second woman who had healthy mitochondria.

The research is being funded by the Muscular Dystrophy Campaign, a British charity.

Only trace amounts of a person's genes come from the mitochondria, and experts said it would be incorrect to say that the embryos have three parents.

"Most of the genes that make you who you are are inside the nucleus," Chinnery said. "We're not going anywhere near that."

So far, 10 such embryos have been created, though they have not been allowed to develop for more than five days. Chinnery hoped that after further experiments in the next few years the process might be available to parents undergoing in-vitro fertilization.

"If successful, this research could give families who might otherwise have a bleak future a chance to avoid some very grave diseases," said Francoise Shenfield, a fertility expert with the European Society of Human Reproduction and Embryology. Shenfield was not connected to the Newcastle University research.

Similar experiments have been conducted in animals in Japan, and has already led to the birth of healthy mice who had their mitochondria genes corrected.

Shenfield said that further tests to assess the safety and efficacy of the process were necessary before it could be offered as a potential treatment.

A bill to allow the procedure to be regulated as a therapy for couples — once it is proven to work — is expected to be discussed in Britain's House of Commons in March.

~ PeRHiaSaN DuNiA (TenTang AuRaT) ~

Perjalanan ke Interact Building menuju ke kelas 2c semalam sama seperti perjalanan hari-hari sebelumnya. Melalui jalan yang dipenuhi dengan anjing-anjing liar, melintasi jalan utama yang selalu berdebu dan dilalui lori-lori besar,mengelak najis-najis lembu yang bersepahan di atas jalan, semua itu dah menjadi rutin harianku. Pagi ini tidak terlalu terik. Bunyi hon bersahut-sahutan. Sudah lali di telinga ini. Jalan memang tidak pernah sunyi dengan hon. Sebenarnya, kalau anda berkenderaan di sini, anda WAJIB membunyikan hon. Jika diperhatikan kebanyakan kenderaan besar seperti lori dan bas pasti akan terpampang kenyataan 'Please horn' (Ayat yang telah di'sedap'kan sedikit. Bunyi ayat yang betul lagi kasar). Bunyi hon di sini terlalu kuat dan membingitkan. Kalau di Malaysia, membunyikan hon secara berterusan pasti akan menimbulkan kemarahan orang lain. Macam menunjukkan kemarahan. Di India, pemandu-pemandu di sini pasti akan berbalas-balas untuk membunyikan hon. Sudahlah berterusan, kuat pula tu. Tak kisahlah di Manipal, Delhi atau Bangalore, keadaan yang sama akan berlaku. Masa mula-mula tiba di India memang akan rasa tak biasa. Bingit telinga. Pening kepala juga kadang-kadang.

Eh, melalut pula. Hendak bercerita perkara lain, cerita pasal hon pula yang keluar. Apa yang hendak diceritakan sebenarnya adalah tentang aurat wanita. Persoalan yang selalu menimbulkan spekulasi dan perdebatan. Persoalan yang boleh mengundang kontroversi. Juga persoalan yang tidak akan sudah dibincangkan. Apa yang ingin dikatakan di sini hanyalah sekadar suatu sudut pandangan. Mungkin siapa-siapa yang mengalami akan merasanya.



Insiden pertama:

Semalam, ketika dalam perjalanan ke kelas, aku bertembung dengan rakan sekelasku yang berbangsa Cina. Seorang gadis yang mempunyai lekuk tubuh yang menarik. Dipadankan pula dengan skirt yang agak jarang separas lutut dan blaus berwarna jingga yang mengikut bentuk badannya. Memang cantik. Kami berbalas senyuman sambil meneruskan perjalanan. Aku ingin menyapanya tapi terlihat earphone yang tersangkut di telinganya aku mematikan hasratku. Kami teruskan perjalanan kami walaupun tidak beriringan. Sengaja aku memperlahankan langkahku. Di hadapan, kulihat beberapa pelajar lelaki daripada kolej lain memandang rakanku ini tanpa berkelip. Mereka memandangku juga tapi kembali mengalih pandangan mereka ke arah rakanku ini sekali lagi. Pandangan mata mereka masih tidak lagi lepas. Si gadis tidak perasan dia sedang diperhatikan. Aku tersenyum seketika. Sesetengah orang mungkin berkata, "Dasar lelaki, tak boleh nampak perempuan seksi". Betul, lelaki tidak menjaga pandangan. Mujur sahaja semuanya bukan Islam. Namun di sebalik itu, bukankah perempuan juga patut menjaga dirinya. Pakaian yang mencolok mata sudah tentu akan menarik perhatian lelaki.

Islam telah memberi garis panduan yang sempurna dalam adab-adab berpakaian bagi wanita. Betapa Islam benar-benar memelihara maruah wanita. Lihat sahaja keadaan sekarang. Bukan lelaki sahaja yang ter'seksa' melihat, kami wanita yang menutup aurat dengan sempurna juga berasa malu dengan sesetengah perlakuan kaum sejenis. Adakalanya, yang Melayu dan beragama Islam lebih dahsyat dari teman-teman yang bukan Islam. Berpakaian sopan lagi menutup aurat dapat menyelamatkan wanita daripada fitnah-fitnah yang tidak sepatutnya. Ibarat batu permata yang berkilauan yang dijaga dengan rapi dan dibalut dengan sebaik-baiknya begitulah juga wanita. Bukankah yang tersembunyi lebih indah. Fitrah wanita yang Tuhan ciptakan perlulah dilindungi.


Wahai Nabi, suruhlah isteri-isterimu dan anak-anak perempuanmu serta perempuan-perempuan yang beriman, supaya melabuhkan pakaiannya bagi menutup seluruh tubuhnya (semasa mereka keluar); cara yang demikian lebih sesuai untuk mereka dikenal (sebagai perempuan yang baik-baik) maka dengan itu mereka tidak diganggu dan (ingatlah) Allah adalah Maha Pengampun, lagi Maha Mengasihani. [Al-Ahzab:59]



Insiden kedua:

"Why you always look at me?" seorang rakan sekelas perempuan menujukan pertanyaan itu kepada rakan sekelas lelaki yang bukan beragama Islam. "If you look like that to Damia, you must have been slapped already,"tambah rakanku lagi. Aku terkedu sebentar. Kata-katanya itu ada benarnya. Aku sebenarnya agak tegas lebih-lebih lagi dengan rakan-rakan lelaki. Mungkin ada juga yang beranggapan aku ini garang. Biarlah. Daripada aku melayan usikan dan gurauan yang bukan-bukan lebih baik aku buat kerja lain. Atau berdiam diri. Kalau ramah bukan pada tempatnya boleh menimbulkan penyakit hati pula. Dek sikap yang serius inilah aku jarang diganggu oleh rakan lelaki yang bukan beragama Islam yang seorang ini.

Berhijab bukan sekadar menutup kepala dan tubuh badan sahaja tetapi juga tingkahlaku dan tutur kata perlu dijaga. Apatah lagi bersuara lembut dan manja. Mungkin secara semulajadi ada sesetengah yang memang bersuara lembut. Memang sukar. Bagaimana untuk berbicara? Khuatir boleh menimbulkan perasaan yang bukan-bukan kepada sang ikhwah yang bertanya. Berhijab tapi masih memanja-manjakan suara masih lagi boleh menjadi fitnah bagi wanita. "Apa ni, itu tak boleh buat, ini tak boleh, apa yang boleh?Macam menyekat hak kebebasan pula." Benarkah begitu? Bagi diri sendiri, aku tak pernah berasa begitu. Wanita perlulah menunjukkan sedikit ketegasan agar diri lebih dihormati. Orang lain (terutamanya lelaki) akan takut untuk berkata yang bukan-bukan. Hanya berkomunikasi untuk perkara-perkara yang penting. Bukan kata-kata kosong dan tidak bertujuan.



Insiden ketiga:

"Damia, why are you wearing socks?Why not just put on the sandals only?Why must you wear the socks?"

Aku sekadar tersenyum. Jawabku, "Because in Islam a woman need to cover everything except her hands and face." Rasanya tak perlulah aku memberitahu masih ada kekhilafan sama ada perlu memakai stokin atau tidak.

"Then, why don't you just wear the shoes?"

"Hehe..because I prefer to use sandals. I can move my digits"



Insiden keempat:

"Damia, can I ask you something?"

"Yes,go on."

"Hmmm...why you wearing this?" (merujuk kepada hand socks)

Belum sempat membuka mulut, rakan di sebelahnya berkata (rakan sekelas lelaki yang berbangsa India), "Aiyo Jayanti, it's because she wants to cover her forearms, right Damia?"

"Huhu...yes, you are correct"ujarku pula.

"Not like you, baju penuh lubang-lubang" (merujuk kepada belahan di bahagian belakang salwar kameez yang dipakainya)

Aku tertawa. Kata-katanya ada benarnya.

Lihat sahaja, bagaimana sesetengah teman-teman yang belum mendapat hidayah-Nya mengetahui tentang kepentingan aurat dalam Islam. Malunya kalau yang bukan Islam bertanyakan hal sedemikian tetapi diri sendiri belum menjaga aurat dengan sebaik-baiknya.


Dan katakanlah kepada perempuan-perempuan yang beriman supaya menyekat pandangan mereka (daripada memandang yang haram), dan memelihara kehormatan (kemaluan) mereka, dan janganlah mereka memperlihatkan perhiasan tubuh mereka kecuali yang zahir daripadanya, dan hendaklah mereka menutup belahan leher baju mereka dengan tudung kepala mereka, dan janganlah mereka memperlihatkan perhiasan tubuh mereka melainkan kepada suami mereka... [An-Nur:31]

Malah cara pemakaian tudung juga menyebabkan seseorang wanita itu mendapat layanan yang sedikit berbeza daripada orang-orang di sekelilingnya. Tudung labuh vs tudung selempang. Yan bukan Islam pun tahu, si pemakai tudung labuh ni mesti devoted berbanding si pemakai tudung selempang. Orang lain lebih segan dengan yang bertudung labuh. Terfikir juga,tidak hairankah rakan-rakan bukan Islam melihat pelbagai cara bertudung. Mungkin mereka menganggapnya sebagai fesyen.

4 situasi yang cukup memberikan hikmah betapa pentingnya aurat wanita. Sekalipun nampak kecil, tapi bagi pandanganku banyak memberikan makna. Betapa syariat-Nya bukan bertujuan menyusahkan tetapi menyelamatkan wanita. Tak perlu risau tentang gaya rambut. Tak perlu risau membetul-betulkan baju yang singkat. Islam memudahkan bukan?