Everything is Possible

Just now I went to ICHS building to check my Block 4 exam result. It's a bit late since the result has come out few days back but no one told me about it. I only come to know after my classmate send me an SMS telling me to check the internal marks. I wonder why no one told me. Has everyone become too busy for exam preparation? Never mind. At least there is still someone who remember me. Ok, that's not the point that I would like to tell. The thing is my result which surprised me. For the first time, I got distinction marks for three out four subjects. And one of them is Pharmacology. Of course, getting 75% makes me happy. Despite having acute abdominal pain during the exam and need to leave the examination hall early because I couldn't bear with the pain, I managed to do well. I recalled on that day after finishing the second paper, I rushed to home so that I could lying down on bed. It's just unbearable. The pain distracts me a lot especially during second paper. That time, I prayed so that at least I can passed the paper. I don't care whether I'll get high mark or not. I don't even put any hope. But Alhamdulillah, with His will, He gives me such result. Allah is Merciful. He knows me. He granted me with this gift when I feel hopeless. If come to think again, it is quite impossible. But nothing is impossible when He says yes. He has answered my prayer. But somehow I feel scared. I still having university exam in another two weeks. I don't know what is my fate. I just hope it goes smoothly. May He destined me to pass in this final exam. Insha-Allah, with my effort and His blessing. I put myself as His servant. I let Him destine my fate.

What Had Missing?

I looked back what I have done these few months but nothing big happened in my life. Just another day that passed by. Just another week filled with classes, laboratory works, assignments etc. I don't feel the excitement. What had lost? Missing home? I called home every now and then. I will be back in another few weeks. Friends? Sometimes I become jerk but still I'll try my best to be a good buddy. Love? Hmm..skip this. Never go through a real relationship. Study? I'm doing pretty good although I am just average student. Huh, sometimes I really want better grade but first I should change my way of study. So, what had missing?

Medicine Term VS Layman Term

Some layman terms that I knew before entering medicine college which are related with medicine.


urat
In layman term this referring to the vein but unfortunately this is a wrong term. Actually, it is referring to the nerve.


keruping
It refers to blackish dead tissue overlying the previously injured tissue (eschar).


otot
Among layman it always thought as bulk of muscles on arm (referring to the biceps muscle) but actually otot = muscle. So not only the biceps but our whole body having it!


kuman
I think it refers to bacteria (only?)


akut
Malay translation for acute. Mistakenly thought as less dangerous than chronic. Acute = rapid onset. Can be as serious outcome of disease as chronic.

kronik
Always thought as a serious outcome of a disease but actually it means slow onset/progression.

paru-paru berair
Is it pneumonia? Pulmonary oedema? If translated, pulmonary oedema is the correct one.

keputihan
Layman term for vaginal discharge

These are some of the words that I could think of. A lot of words still remain...may be you can add up?

A Dream Trying To Become True

I will become a doctor, Insha-Allah. But in the meantime, I crave to do something. Hmm..is it approprite to use 'crave'? It sounds I really want to do it. Anyway, it is just a dream. Never make any attempt to become a reality. Yet. It is just a thought. Whether it will become true one day, it depends on me. I don't think I will do it right now or somewhere near in future but I think I will proceed after 10 years. Or maybe more than that. Who knows. So, what is it the dream I'm talking about? I want to write a book. Yes, that is. Writing a book. Becoming an author. I haven't decide whether it is fiction or non-fiction. Maybe I have lots of imagination towards something but it is not necessary that I will write a fiction book. But, who knows I'm interested later. What should I write about? Hmm..let me worry about it later. Maybe the book tells the story of my life. Or maybe a view of something. Or maybe about medicine. I don't know yet. But before that, I need to sharpen my literature. And gather the materials, of course. I don't have specific plan yet but sooner or later, I hope it become true.

Writing a book...a pending dream

LOST

Ever lost before?

Lost your touch?

Lost your idea?

Or your hope?

Or maybe your spirit?

Or even you think that something is missing but you don't know what had lost from you?

You don't know what to do.

You don't know what to tell.

You're just lost.

Where am I? What I am doing here? Where should I go? What am I supposed to do?

Is there anyone out there?

Why is so empty?

Where is everyone?

Am I blind?

Too many questions but there are no answers for that.

.....

Still lost in the middle of the day.

Hoping to find a way out...but where?

Is there a really way out?