POST-EXAM SYNDROME

What a relief when the last paper of Microbiology has finished.I've waited impatiently to end the very first war of First Block Exam in second year.Very tiring week.As usual,I studied at eleventh hour again.Hmmm..it's very difficult to change this attitude.I knew it's not a good habit yet I've still do it.Lack of force to study at the beginning?Maybe.Sometimes I don't understand with myself.I want good result (read:result with flying colours means get all distinctions in all subjects) but I do not consistently study from the start of the block.Waiting till a week more left to start everything and at the end I felt lethargy and restless.Bad habit.Come on Damia,you need to 'istiqamah'.It's a need for a Muslim to do that.Wake up,wake up.



Anyway,it has finished already.I felt confident with my Pharmacology paper eventhough the questions are a lot.Pathology?Some of the questions I have misunderstood them.Don't know wheteher I answered accordingly or not.My beloved subject,Microbiology,a really tough paper. I'm not the only one who think like that.Even the toppers in my class feel the same.I guess it's not bad at all.How about Forensic Medicine?Well,I guess it's ok.Direct questions asked on the paper but to remember all the definitions correctly without missed even one word make it a bit tough.



What to do know?Movies or anime?Hmm..how about surfing the internet.

iluvislam.com is an interesting choice.



paksi.net?What is this?Let me open it.Quite new for me.Ohh..there's a forum about post-exam syndrome.Discussion about how students spend their time after examination.Let's see the view. How I ashamed with myself.I'm supposed to use this free time to do things which benefit me not just simply unnecessarily use the time to sleep all the day or watching a full series of anime or enjoying the movies continuously.It's not the way!I've even seen male colleagues spent their post-exam day watching Korean drama!!!!!!What!!



Oh yes,I still can do all that but it has the limit.I should use this time to recite Al-Quran,learn how to recite the Surah appropriately.Or I can read the articles in iluvislam.com which I could not manage to do it during the exam week (it's like promoting iluvislam...hehe,but i do love iluvislam like a real friend).I love to read but unfortunately I don't have any other books apart of subjects text books (which I don't feel to read them right now..hehe).So,iluvislam become my primary source for getting reading materials.Insha-Allah this 'syndrome' would never happen again.



Looking forward for Second Block : )

Some Facts About Manipal

>> You have to wait for a long time just to fixing a new gas tank or pick up your shoes from the cobblers or collect your cheque from Financial Department of University (I thought only Malays known for their 'janji Melayu' but here worse than that. Although not in all situation you encounter this but most of the time,definitely it will happen)

>> Prepare your pocket with some paise (shillings) to be given to the beggars (if you are soft-hearted). Actually sooner or later, you become reluctant to give away those money. But, don't give too much or don't give unequal amount if two beggars come to you simultaneously. They will definitely following you wherever you go.

>> Be careful at where you eat. If you are unlucky, you will get diarrhoea (common phenomenon)

>> When you cross the roads, not only you need to look to your right and left but also behind you. Because here, they do not have the right rules.

>> Bargain first before you buy. You can get cheaper price if you are good in bargaining.

>> You need not have beautiful and expensive shoes. What you need are shoes that you can use during intense hot summer and rainy days. Sport shoes are good choices.

>> You need not to walk to the eating places if you are feeling lazy to cook. Just call your favourite place and they will send food right in front your door. (Same thing you can do for laundry, they can come to your house to pick the laundry, wash them, iron them, send them back to you).

>> For those who living outside, you can hire maids and cook to clean your house, wash your clothes and cook for you.

>> You cannot wear jeans to attend classes (for MMMC students). Then, why on earth other colleges can do it?

>> If you wear any clothes, you can mix totally opposite colour such as green with pink or blue with orange. Nobody will look at you eventhough it looks weird because almost all local people have 'colour disorder'.

>> Use umbrellas during rainy seasons. Here, it rains heavily and continuously.

>> Shops open late during day and close very early at night.

>> Very few lamp posts available so it is not advisable to walk at night. Dangerous. You may get hit by vehicles if the drivers/riders do not notice you.

>> You can play fireworks at any time you want to. It does not necessary to play on certain occasions. Plus, you will not get caught.

[There's still some more things which are peculiar but you will know them better if you live here]

Pulang Semula

Alamak...tak seronoknya.Cuti dah habis.Kembali ke dunia realiti semula.Realiti sebagai seorang pelajar.Kembali berhadapan dengan kelas dan buku-buku.Dengan ujian dan peperiksaan.

'Homesick'nya rasa.Rindu dengan mama.Dengan ayah.Dengan Abang,Amir,Kak Cik,Amin dan Adik.Dengan Momoe,Koko dan Yuyue.Sepatutnya balik Malaysia adalah untuk menghilangkan kerinduan bukan menambah 'homesick' di hati.Rasa macam nak balik semula.Tak dapat la nak tengok Liontin lagi.Tak dapat la tercangak depan TV dan menatap wajah Roby lagi.Ish..sejak bila aku 'layan' cerita Indonesia ni?Rasanya macam nak balik je bulan Mac nanti.Tapi boleh ke? Kata nak pegi jalan-jalan lagi.Bila lagi ada kesempatan nak berjalan-jalan kalau bukan dah ada di sini.Tengoklah dulu.Tapi rasa 'homesick' masih menebal.Terbayang-bayang lagi lambaian mama kat KLIA.Rasa nak menitik air mata waktu tu tapi malu pula dengan kawan-kawan.Takpe.. takpe...tahan,tahan.Telefon mama semalam.Mama kata biasalah tu,nanti lama-lama kurang lah rasa 'homesick' tu.Lambatnya lagi nak balik Malaysia semula.Setahun lagi.Mudah-mudahan masa cepat berlalu.Mudah-mudahan kesibukan buat rasa tak sedar pun masa berlalu dengan pantas.

Rasa macam tak cukup je cuti yang ada.Terlalu singkat rasanya.Seronoknya kawan-kawan yang belajar kat UK,Ireland,US,Czech Republic.Diorang semua cuti sampai 3 bulan.Kat sini?Sebulan je ada.Tak mengapalah sekurang-kurangnya setiap 5 bulan ada cuti sebulan.Bahagian masing-masing.Walaupun pendek tapi biar bermanfaat.Biar terisi dengan perkara-perkara yang betul. Walaupun singkat,kepuasan hati tetap ada.Cuma,harap-harap cuti akan datang dapat meluangkan lebih banyak masa dengan keluarga.Shopping dengan mama.Borak-borak dengan mama dan adik-adik.Luangkan masa dengan ayah.Melawat abang dengan Amir.Main dengan Momoe.Main dengan Koko dan Yuyue juga.Rindunya...

Tunggu Along balik lagi ye!!!!

Kembali

Setelah setahun berada di bumi Manipal,akhirnya aku berpeluang kembali ke tanah air untuk bercuti pada bulan Ogos-September.Rindu kepada keluarga yang tidak tergambar dengan kata-kata. Teruja hati saat melangkah keluar dari apartmen menuju ke tempat menunggu bas. Perjalanan yang dirasakan terlalu panjang.Bayangkan, bertolak dari Manipal 25 Ogos dan sampai ke rumah pada 27 Ogos.Ini gara-gara memilih untuk transit beberapa jam di Sri Lanka.Tak mengapalah,pengalaman yang berbaloi walaupun sedikit memenatkan. Beruntungnya berpeluang menjejakkan kaki ke Sri Lanka.Walaupun bukan secara rasmi,tapi kesempatan yang ada tidak harus dilepaskan.Mungkin tak akan ada peluang kedua.Penginapan mewah yang disediakan,menyusuri pantai yang pernah dilanda tsunami pada Disember 2004,menikmati supper yang ala kadar, mana mungkin ada kesempatan kedua. Cukuplah sekali. Tak sabar rasanya nak tiba di rumah.Mesti mama dah siapkan lauk ikan keli kegemaranku. Ayah...masih sibukkah seperti selalu?Apa khabar agaknya adik-adikku. Dah setahun tak berjumpa. Mesti ada banyak perubahan. Mudah-mudahan cuti ni akan aku gunakan sebaik-baiknya untuk meluangkan masa dengan keluarga tercinta dan teman-teman yang dirindui. Tak dilupakan shopping di Mid Valley (hehe)

Aku kembali...

If You're......

If you're mad with someone, and nobody's there to fix the situation...You fix it. Maybe today, that person still wants to be your friend. And if you don't, tomorrow can be too late.

If you're in love with somebody, but that person doesn't know...tell her/him. Maybe today, that person is also in love with you. And if you don't say it, tomorrow can be too late.

If you still love a person that you think has forgotten you... tell her/him. Maybe that person has always loved you. And if you don't tell her/him today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you need a hug of a friend...ask her/him for it. May be she/he needs itvmore than you do. And if you don't askvfor it today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you really have friends whom you appreciate...tell them. Maybe they appreciate you as well. And if you don't and they leave or go far away today, tomorrow can be too late.

If you love your parents, and never had the chance to show them... do it. Maybe you have them there to show them how you feel. And if you don't and they leave today, then tomorrow can be too late.

2:216

"....But it is possible that ye dislike a thing which is good for you, and that ye love a thing which is bad for you. But Allah knoweth, and ye know not"

hot..hotter..hottest

Manipal is getting hotter day by day. It has not been raining since last October.3 months to go before rain season starts.The atmosphere is dry..the roads are dusty..oh I wish rain will fall off once a while.The weather here is really different from Malaysia.The weather here is between two extremes, summer season (I would say dry season) and rainy season. It is hot right now but it will going to be hotter on May, according to my lecturer. I use umbrella everyday as the sunshine is too strong.In Manipal you have to use umbrella throughout the year.You will need it both during dry season and rainy season.Now,as the weather is getting hotter,I use to take bath 3 times a day.Even a break between morning class and afternoon class I take bath.My lecturers advise my friends and I to drink a lot of mineral water and buy a lot of bottles as stock because it probably become scarce in few weeks.Plus they advised us to avoid the hawkers which selling food at roadside (I never do that).
Hmmm..how I wish to watch the season change again..

A Du'a from Hadith

"I have surrendered myself to You, I have directed my face to You, I have entrusted my affairs to You, I have compelled my back to refuge in You, in want and in fright of You, there is no resort nor survival from You except (in turning) to You. I have faith in Your book (i.e. the Qur'an) which You brought down and in the Prophet (Muhammad) you have sent."

(Al-Bukhari, Muslim)

Proving The Existence Of Allah s.w.t. To An Atheist (Or Anyone)

by Dr Zakir Naik

CONGRATULATING AN ATHEIST

Normally, when I meet an atheist, the first thing I like to do is to congratulate him and say, " My special congratulations to you", because most of the people who believe in God are doing blind belief - he is a Christian, because his father is a Christian; he is a Hindu, because his father is a Hindu; the majority of the people in the world are blindly following the religion of their fathers.

An atheist, on the other hand, even though he may belong to a religious family, uses his intellect to deny the existence of God; what ever concept or qualities of God he may have learnt in his religion may not seem to be logical to him.

My Muslim brothers may question me, "Zakir, why are you congratulating an atheist?"

The reason that I am congratulating an atheist is because he agrees with the first part of the Shahada i.e. the Islamic Creed, ‘La ilaaha’ - meaning ‘there is no God’. So half my job is already done; now the only part left is ‘il lallah’ i.e. ‘BUT ALLAH’ which I shall do Insha Allah.

With others (who are not atheists) I have to first remove from their minds the wrong concept of God they may have and then put the correct concept of one true God.

LOGICAL CONCEPT OF GOD

My first question to the atheist will be: "What is the definition of God?" For a person to say there is no God, he should know what is the meaning of God.

If I hold a book and say that ‘this is a pen’, for the opposite person to say, ‘it is not a pen’, he should know what is the definition of a pen, even if he does not know nor is able to recognise or identify the object I am holding in my hand. For him to say this is not a pen, he should at least know what a pen means.

Similarly for an atheist to say ‘there is no God’, he should at least know the concept of God. His concept of God would be derived from the surroundings in which he lives. The god that a large number of people worship has got human qualities - therefore he does not believe in such a god.

Similarly a Muslim too does not and should not believe in such false gods. If a non-Muslim believes that Islam is a merciless religion with something to do with terrorism; a religion which does not give rights to women; a religion which contradicts science; in his limited sense that non-Muslim is correct to reject such Islam.

The problem is he has a wrong picture of Islam. Even I reject such a false picture of Islam, but at the same time, it becomes my duty as a Muslim to present the correct picture of Islam to that non-Muslim i.e. Islam is a merciful religion, it gives equal rights to the women, it is not incompatible with logic, reason and science; if I present the correct facts about Islam, that non-Muslim may Inshallah accept Islam.

Similarly the atheist rejects the false gods and the duty of every Muslim is to present the correct concept of God which he shall Insha Allah not refuse. (You may refer to my article, ‘Concept of God in Islam’, for more details)

QUR’AN AND MODERN SCIENCE

The methods of proving the existence of God with usage of the material provided in the ‘Concept of God in Islam’ to an atheist may satisfy some but not all.

Many atheists demand a scientific proof for the existence of God. I agree that today is the age of science and technology. Let us use scientific knowledge to kill two birds with one stone, i.e. to prove the existence of God and simultaneously prove that the Qur’an is a revelation of God.

If a new object or a machine, which no one in the world has ever seen or heard of before, is shown to an atheist or any person and then a question is asked, " Who is the first person who will be able to provide details of the mechanism of this unknown object?

After little bit of thinking, he will reply, ‘the creator of that object.’ Some may say ‘the producer’ while others may say ‘the manufacturer.’ What ever answer the person gives, keep it in your mind, the answer will always be either the creator, the producer, the manufacturer or some what of the same meaning, i.e. the person who has made it or created it. Don’t grapple with words, whatever answer he gives, the meaning will be same, therefore accept it.

SCIENTIFIC FACTS MENTIONED IN THE QUR’AN

for details on this subject please refer to my book, ‘THE QUR’AN AND MODERN SCIENCE – COMPATIBLE OR INCOMPATIBLE?

THEORY OF PROBABILITY

In mathematics there is a theory known as ‘Theory of Probability’. If you have two options, out of which one is right, and one is wrong, the chances that you will chose the right one is half, i.e. one out of the two will be correct. You have 50% chances of being correct. Similarly if you toss a coin the chances that your guess will be correct is 50% (1 out of 2) i.e. 1/2.

If you toss a coin the second time, the chances that you will be correct in the second toss is again 50% i.e. half. But the chances that you will be correct in both the tosses is half multiplied by half (1/2 x 1/2) which is equal to 1/4 i.e. 50% of 50% which is equal to 25%. If you toss a coin the third time, chances that you will be correct all three times is (1/2 x 1/2 x 1/2) that is 1/8 or 50% of 50% of 50% that is 12½%.

A dice has got six sides. If you throw a dice and guess any number between 1 to 6, the chances that your guess will be correct is 1/6. If you throw the dice the second time, the chances that your guess will be correct in both the throws is (1/6 x 1/6) which is equal to 1/36. If you throw the dice the third time, the chances that all your three guesses are correct is (1/6 x 1/6 x 1/6) is equal to 1/216 that is less than 0.5 %.

Let us apply this theory of probability to the Qur’an, and assume that a person has guessed all the information that is mentioned in the Qur’an which was unknown at that time. Let us discuss the probability of all the guesses being simultaneously correct. At the time when the Qur’an was revealed, people thought the world was flat, there are several other options for the shape of the earth. It could be triangular, it could be quadrangular, pentagonal, hexagonal, heptagonal, octagonal, spherical, etc.

Lets assume there are about 30 different options for the shape of the earth. The Qur’an rightly says it is spherical, if it was a guess the chances of the guess being correct is 1/30. The light of the moon can be its own light or a reflected light.

The Qur’an rightly says it is a reflected light. If it is a guess, the chances that it will be correct is 1/2 and the probability that both the guesses i.e the earth is spherical and the light of the moon is reflected light is 1/30 x 1/2 = 1/60.

Further, the Qur’an also mentions every living thing is made of water. Every living thing can be made up of either wood, stone, copper, aluminum, steel, silver, gold, oxygen, nitrogen, hydrogen, oil, water, cement, concrete, etc. The options are say about 10,000.

The Qur’an rightly says that everything is made up of water. If it is a guess, the chances that it will be correct is 1/10,000 and the probability of all the three guesses i.e. the earth is spherical, light of moon is reflected light and everything is created from water being correct is 1/30 x 1/2 x 1/10,000 = 1/60,000 which is equal to about .0017%.

The Qur’an speaks about hundreds of things that were not known to men at the time of its revelation. Only in three options the result is .0017%. I leave it upto you, to work out the probability if all the hundreds of the unknown facts were guesses, the chances of all of them being correct guesses simultaneously and there being not a single wrong guess.

It is beyond human capacity to make all correct guesses without a single mistake, which itself is sufficient to prove to a logical person that the origin of the Qur’an is Divine.

CREATOR IS THE AUTHOR OF THE QUR’AN

The only logical answer to the question as to who could have mentioned all these scientific facts 1400 years ago before they were discovered, is exactly the same answer initially given by the atheist or any person, to the question who will be the first person who will be able to tell the mechanism of the unknown object.

It is the ‘CREATOR’, the producer, the Manufacturer of the whole universe and its contents. In the English language He is ‘God’, or more appropriate in the Arabic language, ‘ALLAH’.

QUR’AN IS A BOOK OF SIGNS AND NOT SCIENCE

Let me remind you that the Qur’an is not a book of Science, ‘S-C-I-E-N-C-E’ but a book of Signs ‘S-I-G-N-S’ i.e. a book of ayaats. The Qur’an contains more than 6,000 ayaats, i.e. ‘signs’, out of which more than a thousand speak about Science. I am not trying to prove that the Qur’an is the word of God using scientific knowledge as a yard stick because any yardstick is supposed to be more superior than what is being checked or verified.

For us Muslims the Qur’an is the Furqan i.e. criteria to judge right from wrong and the ultimate yardstick which is more superior to scientific knowledge. But for an educated man who is an atheist, scientific knowledge is the ultimate test which he believes in.

We do know that science many a times takes ‘U’ turns, therefore I have restricted the examples only to scientific facts which have sufficient proof and evidence and not scientific theories based on assumptions. Using the ultimate yardstick of the atheist, I am trying to prove to him that the Qur’an is the word of God and it contains the scientific knowledge which is his yardstick which was discovered recently, while the Qur’an was revealed 1400 year ago. At the end of the discussion, we both come to the same conclusion that God though superior to science, is not incompatible with it.

SCIENCE IS ELIMINATING MODELS OF GOD BUT NOT GOD

Francis Bacon, the famous philosopher, has rightly said that a little knowledge of science makes man an atheist, but an in-depth study of science makes him a believer in God.

Scientists today are eliminating models of God, but they are not eliminating God. If you translate this into Arabic, it is La illaha illal la, There is no god, (god with a small ‘g’ that is fake god) but God (with a capital ‘G’). Surah Fussilat: "Soon We will show them our signs in the (farthest) regions (of the earth), and in their own souls, until it becomes manifest to them that this is the Truth. Is it not enough that thy Lord doth witness all things?" [Al-Quran 41:53]

Tazkirah...jUsT OnE MiNuTe

SIGNS OF WEAK IMAN

1) Committing sins and not feeling any guilt.
2) Having a hard heart and no desire to read the Quran.
3) Feeling too lazy to do good deeds, e.g. being late for Salat
4) Neglecting the Sunnah.
5) Having mood swings, for instance being upset about petty things and bothered and irritated most of the time.
6) Not feeling anything when hearing verses from the Quran, for example when Allah warns us of punishment and His promise of glad tidings.
7) Finding difficulty in remembering Allah and making Dhikr.
8) Not feeling bad when things are done against the Shariah.
9) Desiring status and wealth.
10) Being mean and miserly, i.e. not wanting to part with wealth.
11) Ordering others to do good deeds when not practising them ourselves.
12) Feeling pleased when things are not progressing for others.
13) Making fun of people who do simple good deeds, like cleaning the mosque.
14) Not feeling concerned about the situation of Muslims.
15) Not feeling the responsibility to do something to promote Islam.
16) Being unable to deal with calamities, for instance crying and yelling in funerals.
17) Liking to argue just for the sake of arguing without any proof.
18) Becoming engrossed and very involved with dunya, worldly things, i.e. feeling bad only when losing something in terms of material wealth.
19) Becoming engrossed and obsessive about ourselves.

WAYS TO INCREASE OUR IMAAN

1) Recite and ponder on the meanings of the Quran. Tranquillity then descends and our hearts become soft. To get optimum benefit, remind yourself that Allah is speaking to you. People are described in differentcategories in the Quran; think of which one you find yourself in.
2) Realize the greatness of Allah. Everything is under His control. There are signs in everything we see that points us to His greatness. Everything happens according to His permission. Allah keeps track and looks after everything, even a black ant on a black rock on a black moonless night.
3) Make an effort to gain knowledge. People who have Taqwa are those who have knowledge.
4) Attend gatherings where Allah is remembered. In such gatherings we are surrounded by angels.
5) We have to increase our good deeds. One good deed leads to another good deed. Allah will make the way easy for someone who gives charity and also make it easy for him or her to do good deeds. Good deeds must be done continuously, not in spurts.
6) We must fear the miserable end to our lives; the remembrance of death is the destroyer of pleasures.
7) Remember the different levels of akhirah, for instance when we are put in our graves, when we are judged, whether we will be in paradise or hell.
8) Make Doa, realize that we need Allah. Be humble. Don't covet material things in this life.
9) Our love for ALLAH Subhana Wa Tuala must be shownin actions. We must hope Allah will accept our prayers, and be in constant fear that we do wrong. At night before going to sleep, we must think about what good we did during that day.
10) Realize the effects of sins and disobedience- one's Iman is increased with good deeds and our Iman is decreased by bad deeds. Everything that happens is because Allah wanted it. When calamity befalls us- it is also from Allah. It is a direct result of our disobedience to Allah.



Aisha (Razi AllahuTa`ala anhaa), the wife of Hazrat Muhammad(Sallallahu alaihe wa aalihe wasallam), reported Hazrat Muhammad(Sallallahu alaihe wa aalihi wassalam) as saying:

"Kindness is not to be found in anything but that it adds to its beauty and it is not withdrawn from anything but it makes it defective."
(Narrated in Sahih Muslim, Book 3, Number 6274)


"Riches does not mean having a great amount of property; real wealth is self-contentment" . (Sahih Bukhari Book 81, Chapter 15)

GOA...GOA...

it's time for shopping

the cool seawater

sandcastle

help..help..we're drowning

a pose before dinner

some kind of decoration at our villa

a pose before breakfast picnic

other pictures: visit http://mia-chan.fotopages.com

a poem from anonymous

SOMETIMES

When the World's not on your side

You don't know where to run to...

You don't know where to hide...

You gaze at the stars in the sky

At the mountain so high...

Through the tears in your eyes

Looking for a reason...to replace what is gone

Just remember...remember

That you are never alone

Just reach into your heart

And see

God is always there!!!

Through sorrow and through grief

Through happiness and peace

You are never alone

Becoming Legal

A not-so-suprised face

What a surprising and touching moment.It's my birthday and everyone was threwing a surprise birthday party for me.My first ever surprise birthday party.After 21 years of living,this is the first time someone planning a birthday party for me.What makes it sweeter is the next day I went to Taj Mahal,one of the Seven Wonders presently.Somehow I celebrated my 21st birthday (the day when people said you become 'legal') in Agra,India.Priceless moments.I remembered how a friend of mine envied me because my birthday fall during our trip to Golden Triangle (Delhi,Agra,Jaipur).I've got my 'present' already.SEEING TAJ MAHAL!!

Anyway,it's a really touching moment.I've cried at that time. Everything was arranged perfectly and I did not suspect any unusual.They tricked me to go to toilet so that they could preparing the event.For a minute,I felt really stupid but later when each one of them wishing my birthday,my tears started rolling down.I'm easily get touched.Feel like being appreciated.The musicians played the birthday song for me using the sitar (if I'm not mistaken). Although the cake was a bit terrible,I'm really grateful for those who planning all this. Unforgettable memories.The next day,which the real date of my birthday,our tour guide sang a birthday song in Hindi just for me (sorry guys,don't jealous)

One year older,one step wiser...Insha-Allah (may have a quality year onwards)

Why do we read Qur'an, even we cannot understand not even a single Arabic

An old American Muslim lived on a farm in the mountains of eastern Kentucky with his young grandson. Each morning Grandpa wake up early sitting at the kitchen table reading his Qur'an.

His grandson wanted to be just like him and tried to imitate him in every way he could.

One day the grandson asked, "Grandpa, I try to read the Qur'an just like you but I don't understand it, and what I do understand I forget as soon as I close the book. What good does reading the Qur'an do?"

The Grandfather quietly turned from putting coal in the stove and replied, "Take this coal basket down to the river and bring me back a basket of water."

The boy did as he was told, but all the water leaked out before he got back to the house. The grandfather laughed and said, "You'll have to move a little faster next time," and sent him back to the river with the basket to try again. This time the boy ran faster, but again the basket was empty before he returned home.

Out of breath, he told his grandfather that it was impossible to carry water in a basket, and he went to get a bucket instead.

The old man said, "I don't want a bucket of water; I want a basket of water. You're just not trying hard enough," and he went out the door to watch the boy try again. At this point, the boy knew it was impossible, but he wanted to show his grandfather that even if he ran as fast as he could, the water would leak out before he got back to the house.

The boy again dipped the basket into river and ran hard, but when he reached his grandfather the basket was again empty.

Out of breath, he said, "See Grandpa, it's useless!"

"So you think it is useless?" The old man said, "Look at the basket."

The boy looked at the basket and for the first time realized that the basket was different. It had been transformed from a dirty old coal basket and was now clean, inside and out.

"Son, that's what happens when you read the Qur'an. You might not understand or remember everything, but when you read it, you will be change, inside and out. That is the work of Allah in our lives."

Golden Triangle:'Pink' City

'PINK' CITY

pink ke bangunan ni? actually warna terracota baru betul

pose menarik..boleh jadi model tak, huhu (^_^)

sejuk...brrr...

Grateful

Grateful...many times we tend to forget Him when we get all that we want.Why it always happen? Is it difficult to express our gratitude to Him?When we want something,we asked for His help. When we had plan something,we want Him grant us everything we had planned.But when we already get what we want,we forget Him. We forget to show our gratitude.We come to Him when we need something.We come to Him when we feel helpless.We come to Him when feel depress.We come to Him when we think the world turn back on us. But He the Most Merciful never turn away from us.He always be there for us everyday,every moment,everytime we need Him.He needs not us but we always need Him.
Oh ALLAH,give us Your guidance.Show us the right pathway.May our faith become stronger day by day.May You grant us with Your bless.May we remember You wherever we go and in whatever we do.Put us among the people that you have blessed them before.Ameen.

The End of Second Block

Tomorrow is the official day the ending of second block.Wow..I really couldn't believe that I have gone through the most challenging period in second block.Struggling with block exam makes me really tired and I am glad it almost over.And all praise to Allah for giving me strength to get through all this.How fortunate I am as all the topics that come out for the exam I have read carefully and give extra attention.I pray to Him,hoping that all the answers I have given followed the questions accordingly.After this...a month of holiday.Seeing most my friends packing their stuff to go back makes me envy.I miss my family so much.I wish I will be in Malaysia by next week but I have decided not to go back until this September.Another 6 months..it just too long.I miss Mid Valley,huhu.I'm missing the food...I miss everything about Malaysia.Time pass by so fast.I remembered the first time I arrived here,feeling homesick and wanted to go back at that time.It almost 6 months already.2 years left before I'm completing the Stage I in Manipal.2 years..time will pass so fast and you will not realize it.

Alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah..I thanked to Allah for His blessing.I just finished my Physiology paper,the most challenging paper that I have to sit.I put so much effort for this paper.Slept at 11 something and woke up at 3 am just to do extra revision.It was really tiring but I don't have much choice.I kept thinking the non-SDL test,how bad I have done for that test.I don't want to repeat same mistake again.I want to do well.Do yo know how relieve I am right now?Two more papers to go and after that,HOLIDAY!Alhamdulillah I managed to answer all questions for the essay part.I hope I answered correctly.But MCQ paper drive me crazy.It's very difficult.Most of the questions I just simply put as TRUE or FALSE.And I took some risk by answering almost the questions.I hope all the guesses are correct.Anatomy,done... Physiology,done...now it's time for Biochemistry.Looking forward for tomorrow's paper.

LAMENT

LAMENT
Devotees


You
You like to live
like to believe
Essence of life is fun
Want
Want to pretend
The life that you live
Has no guiding hands and you

Jumped into the monies
And never looked back
Moved away from righteousness
You want it all
And don't care if you fall
You wanna see the world
You wanna be the world

Try
Try to believe
The reason to live
Eternal compassion
You'll feel it deep within inside of you

Grasp
The chance to live
A new life
A new beginning
But you

c/o

Why
Do you throw life away
Don't you wanna be among
The ones who faught for the truth
When you eyes were blinded
By the taste temptation in your life
Then tell me why must you

T.E.A.R.S.

I Cry Again

Just now I just finished my exam performance for Physiology.I really disappointed with myself.I knew that I'm not doing well for the exam.Oh Allah,how I wish I don't fail for the exam.From the beginning,when I first took the token and was assigned to perform the haemocytometer,my hands started trembling.I'm really scared I cannot do well.My calculation of red blood cell is wrong.Later I performed other experiment which was about the pulse examination.Still I did not answer well for every questions the examiner asked me.What had I done?When I went back to my room,I started to cry.I wanted to call my mum but she was not around.I just need someone to listen what I felt right now and comfort me.Mum,I really need you.I want to hug you.I want to tell how I am sorry for not doing well.I'm sorry for make you disappoint.Oh Allah,give me strength.Give me Your guidance.Shower me with Your bless.Give me strength so that I'm not giving up.I still have theory examinations after this.I don't want to lose hope.I want do my best.I put so much effort. And for the lecturers,I'm really sorry for not doing well.Please apology me.

Can I Do It?

Friday morning...the most blessed day in a week.I woke up a bit late.I thanked Allah for still give me a chance to breath the air that He created..looking to the sky,watching the sunrise.Reciting Al-Kahfi but not in full attention.Something bother me.Hmm..I still have lots more to revise for the exam.It's just around a corner and I'm not fully prepared.Gosh...when I'm going to change.I know last minute study it's not good and yet I still do it all over again.I remembered early in this Block II I promise myself to be consistent in study.Well,I broke it again.Again and again.Is it going to happen again?Seeing the seniors received their awards for pass the university exam with flying colours should give an inspiration to me.I can perform very well actually but the excellence will never come if I keep proscrastinating and let the laziness become my loyal partner.I've choose this path and I need to prove it.Give me Your blessing dear Allah.

GoMenNe

I'm sorry for hurting you
I'm sorry for making fool of you
I'm sorry for become so selfish
I'm sorry for not understand your feeling
I'm sorry for making you cry
I'm sorry for not kept my promise
I'm sorry for making you wait for a long time
I'm sorry for everything
I'm sorry for what I have done

(specially dedicated to a special friend)

^_^ GoMenNe ^_^

The Different Angle About Lecturers

Just few hours back I was at Valley View's lawn,attending an annual function conducted by the college.At first I thought it was just a typical Annual College Day where people came and dress up nicely,having some good food and enjoying the show.Yeah it still a typical event for me except for one part, performance by LECTURERS!A few days before I was told that some lecturers would do some performance which at that time I'm not pretty sure whether my lecturers would really do it or not.And that was the main reason I attended the function,to watch them not as lecturers but as performers. Although my dress was still with the tailor and I need to mix-and-match my outfit as I don't have other dress,I don't care how I look like anymore (REALLY?).Naahh..I have decide to come since the first time it has been announced by the Dean.Indeed,I'm a bit jealous with the seniors with their fabulous appearance and how I looked so simple compared to them.Nothing glamourous with my dress.I just looking forward for the show,NOT from the students but from the lecturers.I don't think lecturers in Malaysia are as sporting as they are.And the Dean too,I'm really surprise he was on stage,dancing like a crazy man.I don't know that Mr 'Rain Clap' can dance greatly eventhough he just only shaking his body.Ballet by Mr Ganesh Kamath and Mr Sathish Nayak is the funniest part.After this whenever I'm studying GIT chapter,I would remember him.Not to forget female lecturers who did the classical as well as the modern dancing.An experience which I don't think I can get it in other places.The rugged Dr Maya Roche and Dr Parineetha,the graceful Dr Indira and Dr Surekha Bhath..how can I ever forget that.Looking forward to next year performance..huhu

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I'm Not a Girl Not Yet a Woman

Life is full with unpredictable things.That's what people say.Is it always true?Looking to my years back during my childhood till now,YES,so many things had happen.I grew up as a matured girl..oops a matured woman..hmm I don't think that I have reach to that level.Like Britney sang her song,I'm Not a Girl Not Yet a Woman

I used to think, I had the answers to everything
But now I know,that life doesn't always go my way..yeah
Feels like I am caught in the middle
Thats when I need your love

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I'm not a girl,not yet a woman
All I need is time, A moment that is mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl,there is no need to protect me
It's time that I, learn to face up to this on my own
I have seen much more than you know
So don't tell me to shut my eyes

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I'm not a girl,not yet a woman
All I need is time, A moment that is mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl
But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eye, this girl will always fine her way

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I'm not a girl,
I'm not a girl, don't tell me what to believe
Not yet a woman.
I'm just trying to find the woman in me

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All I need is love
Stronger than mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time, A moment that is mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl,not yet a woman

Few days left before I turn 21.Wow,I am old enough to vote for the leaders of my country.I can get marry at this age BUT I don't think I will do it because I believe that I am not prepared enough to enter marriage life.I think my friends can do so.And deep my heart I knew that some of my girl friends are willing to do so probably this year or next year.Being a going-to-be-21-year-old gal is really annoying in some way.People start asking are you still single?Don't you have a boyfriend?Huh..that questions makes me sick sometimes.And what can I do is smile to them or laughing like someone had told me some silly joke.Yeah,my mum start asking about that too.Hmm..what to do.Life as a woman is not an easy task.Just hoping I can meet a right guy at a right time and at a right place.

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