VIVA

It all happened within a blink of eyes.

This is my story about VIVA. I was one of the students who got 23 marks for cumulative marks of internal examination. My name appears in the list of students who need to attend the distinction VIVA today. I still could not believe when I checked the list name yesterday, I was one of those students. The great thing about your name appearing in the list is you knew that you're already pass for the examination and your mark probably more than 75%. The difficult part is you'll need to go through the VIVA before it confirmed that you deserved to get distinction or not. This is the tough part. To my surprise, lots of other people whom I thinked should be in the list, didn't appear. Guess, I was the lucky one.

So, because of the VIVA I came to library to study and did some discussion. The first time ever in second year I came to library to study. I could see surprised face looking at me. Never mind about that. I didn't put any hope to get VIVA for distinction. But since my name has appeared, I decided to give a try. This is my first experience ever to attend VIVA. I need to go through back all the notes once again. It is impossible to do it in one night but you'll need to put some effort if you want it, right? Although I didn't have any intuition what would happen the following the next day, I prayed to Him for my best. Whether I will get distinction or not, it depends with His will.

My challenge begins when the external examiner started to ask me question about autopsy. I misunderstood the question the question at the beginning but thanks to Dr Vrinda who guide to give the answer that he wanted to hear eventhough it was incomplete and I answered it without full confidence. He asking the next question which I couldn't remember and I told him I couldn't answer the question because I didn't know what it is. A minus for me. The next examiner asked me about the causes of death due to cut throat injury which I thinked I managed to answer it but once again without any confidence. I stumbled for few seconds to give the list for the causes. Hmm..it seems I didn't answer well enough. Dr Arun, my lecturer threw questions which I could answer. My saver for the VIVA. Well, I have done the best. I didn't deserve to get distinction, I guess. There is still a lot of things that I need to sharpen before I want to get good marks. But anyway, it was a new experience to me. It is never hurt if you want to try.

Thanks to all friends who wished me luck and even called me how I am doing. It gave me strength to do it. Ok, let go this for a moment and concentrate to more important mission tomorrow. My practical exam will be on Friday, Saturday and Sunday. The last portion of examination before I go back.

Good luck Damia!

Docs On New Tower

When a panel of doctors was asked to vote on adding a new tower to their hospital,

The Allergists voted to scratch it

The Dermatologists advised not to make any rash moves

The Gastroenterologists had sort of a gut feeling about it

The Neurologists thought the administration had a lot of nerve

The Obstetricians felt they were all laboring under a misconception

The Ophthalmologists considered the idea shortsighted

The Pathologists yelled, "Over my dead body"

The Pediatricians said, "Oh, Grow up!"

The Psychiatrists thought the whole idea was madness

The Radiologists could see right through it

The Surgeons decided to wash their hands of the whole thing

The Internists thought it was a bitter pill to swallow

The Plastic Surgeons said, "This puts a whole new face on the matter."

The Podiatrists thought it was a step forward

The Urologists felt the scheme wouldn't hold water.

The Anesthesiologists thought the whole idea was a gas

The Cardiologists didn't have the heart to say no

In the end,

The Proctologists left the decision up to some asshole in administration.


Hihihi...

* thanks Kak Tasnim for wonderful joke

A Split Second

Do you agree with this:

A split second can change everything

I do agree with this statement. We also can put in other way like 'A slight changes can gives a significant impact' or 'A slight mistake can ruin everything'. In life, we might encounter such scenario. Like if we have extra minute or even second, we can do this or do that. For example, if only I arrived a minute earlier, I might met him/her. If I have extra second I could wrote that word (in examination). If I didn't say those words, we might be still friends. And also other examples that you might think of. It shows that how a second, a minute, a word, a sentence is really important in that kind of situation. You became relief if you managed to get it but you can be really regretful if you missed it. What will you do if you need to face those situation? And it is matter so much to you. And it means everything to you but you miss it. Will you blame yourself? Will you keep thinking about it always? Will you regret it for lifelong? Will you wish you can turn back time and change it? It's difficult right?

What I am trying to say, this is why we need to have faith to Him. Everything that happen even if it do not affect that much in present, it will getting bigger and bigger in future. We may not feel anything at the beginning but sooner or later how you wish you could change it. Not regretting what had happened because He has destined it to happen no matter what you do. Men's fate has be written even before his birth. We think we need that tiny changes to rechange what had happened but sometimes we forget that He arranged like that so that we can learn. To look back why it gone wrong. To rethink our action before. And not just saying, 'If only I....' or 'I wish it would not happen'. We're not the one who controlling our life but the way our life pass by has been destined before whether we like it or not. He gives what we need, not what we want because He knows us much better from any other people. We think we want it but He knows we need it more than we want it. We may not realize until one day when you understand why it goes by His way. You will grateful it has not happened the way you want it to happen.

So, don't be sad if we did slight mistake that we hope we can avoid it or if we missed the split second or minute which we thinking so much that we need it. It's not worth if you kept blaming and cursing yourself. What had happened should have been regretted if it's wrong but not for long. This is the way He teaches us about life, of how we need to be downearth and depend on Him. He never creates something for nonsense or valueless. Thus, let's change our mindset. Everything happened has the reason behind it.

The Disappointing Moment

Oh well, finally Malaysia got silver for badminton in men single category. I wish Chong Wei can do much better. He seems pretty stress that night. Was it because his match against Lin Dan? Or because there were too many Chinese supporters? Chong Wei lets Lin Dan nailed himself in bot sets. Second set is much worse than the first one. He didn't play competitively and let Lin Dan snatched the victory to get Malaysia's first gold ever. He missed the chance for airing 'Negaraku' in BJUT Gimnasium. What a waste. Hmm...I guess it's never be easy. It looks that Chong Wei should do better but we don't know if we're not in his shoes. It's easy to say something but it is never easy if we're in such position. Yet, our contingent need to learn something from these event. Be it is Olympics, Commonwealth or others. You'll need to put more effort. You'll need to do something beyond your limit. Never be satisfied with what that you have done and need to strive more. I would say this to every Malaysia's athletes. We lack qualities.

It seems we need to wait some more time but till when? Do we need to be the host first so that we can beat athletes from other countries? It need not to be necessary. Come on Malaysia's contingent, you know you can do it. You can do much better than this. Put aside those giant countries. It is impossible right now but one day, it can happen. We might be small but our spirit is BIG!

You Know It's Not Your Day When...

Yesterday is supposed to be a day for me to relax. Enjoying an outing after months of burying myself in books. However, it turns upside down. Everything is going well before I started to throw up during the ride to Mangalore. Gosh, I feel really terrible. And because of me, everyone is late for Dark Night show. I felt guilty. We're all a few minutes late for the movie. My seat is not even nearby with others. My abdomen is cramping. My stomach is growling since all content of my stomach has been thrown up. My headache superadding everything. No one offering me anything to clear my throat. I felt really sick. I just want to go back but I don't want disappointing others. They're really looking forward to watch Dark Knight. My expression makes others scared to say anything of me. They just keep quiet. Suddenly, my existence is not being appreciated. Its like I have just yelling or something at them. Err...hello, anyone? The journey back is much better but again I throw up. Luckily we have reached our apartment. However, I couldn't manage to go to bathroom, instead I throw up just outside the apartment. I was fortunate no one was there. It really a waste since my lunch which cost me Rs180 which safely reach the stomach two hours earlier has been thrown up. It's really not my day. Maybe I should take hyoscine (antiemetic) before starting the journey.

Bermulanya Olimpik...

Hari ke-5 Sukan Olimpik...

Tatkala negara-negara jiran sudah menempah pingat masing-masing, pasukan Malaysia masih lagi terkial-kial mencari kedudukan untuk melayakkan diri dalam pusingan akhir. Sedikit mengecewakan. Tiadakah peluang Malaysia untuk mendapatkan pingat? Kali terakhir Malaysia mendapat pingat dalam Sukan Olimpik adalah suatu jangka masa yang panjang. Daripada aku seorang murid sekolah rendah hinggalah aku sudah menjadi penuntut kolej perubatan.

Dan penyakit lamaku berulang kembali. Apabila sahaja bermula temasya sukan tak kiralah Sukan Olimpik, Sukan Komanwel, atau seumpamanya, semangat untuk menceburi sukan pasti akan berkobar-kobar. Rasa ingin menyertai kontinjen Malaysia jadi menebal. (In your dream, Damia). Tiada satu sukan pun yang aku punyai kebolehan. Mungkin aku lebih layak dikatakan pasif dalam sukan. Satu-satunya sukan yang pernah aku ceburi secara serius sepanjang hidup adalah seni mempertahankan diri. Itupun terpaksa menahan diri akhirnya disebabkan kecederaan pada kaki. Tetapi aku sempat menyertai satu kejohanan sebelum 'bersara'. Satu perasaan yang menyeronokkan walaupun tika itu hampir putus nafas dibuatnya kerana terlalu berdebar-debar. Namun keseronokan melihat perlawanan tidak kisah dalam apa jua acara sekalipun, tidak dapat digambarkan denan kata-kata. Menjadi penonton tidak sama seperti menjadi pemain. Debaran yang dirasa sangat berbeza.

Aku berharap Kontinjen Malaysia akan menghasilkan sekurang-kurangnya sebutir pingat. Walaupun harapan semakin tipis, aku harap mereka akan mencuba yang terbaik.

Standing in The Eyes of the World

When is my turn?

Sigh..I just got a wedding invitation from my former classmate during Form 3. And again, I cannot make it just because I am still in Manipal. This is my third/fourth time for not being able to attend wedding ceremony of my friends. Its really difficult since their planning do not overlap with my holidays. I hope this is the last one. I still do not have any experience to watch such wonderful day of my friend's wedding. Well, I guess it can't be help. I don't think they need to wait for my holiday to start and then decide the date so that I am able to attend! (In my dream). For this year, three of my friends have changed their title. Not 'Miss' anymore. Anyway I give my prayer and hoping everything will going well for them. Congratulation!

It makes me think...when will be my turn?

Farewell 2nd Year

Just few weeks more and I will end my sweet-yet-hectic second year. Well, compared to other colleges, this is quite late since most of my friends who studying at other places have finishing theirs and having a nice, warmed holiday. Such a waste. By the time I've finishing mine, everyone has started third year. 25 days more. I just can't wait to be in home. Yet, 5 more days left to the ultimate finale of second year student, the greatest university examination. I just can't believe time can fly that fast. It just the same speed but because I've gone through those classes, practicals, internal exams, etc. I did not notice that it's almost at the end of the year. Good luck for me. Just a little bit patience and Insha-Allah everything will go fine