Alhamdulillah..

Alhamdulillah..I thanked to Allah for His blessing.I just finished my Physiology paper,the most challenging paper that I have to sit.I put so much effort for this paper.Slept at 11 something and woke up at 3 am just to do extra revision.It was really tiring but I don't have much choice.I kept thinking the non-SDL test,how bad I have done for that test.I don't want to repeat same mistake again.I want to do well.Do yo know how relieve I am right now?Two more papers to go and after that,HOLIDAY!Alhamdulillah I managed to answer all questions for the essay part.I hope I answered correctly.But MCQ paper drive me crazy.It's very difficult.Most of the questions I just simply put as TRUE or FALSE.And I took some risk by answering almost the questions.I hope all the guesses are correct.Anatomy,done... Physiology,done...now it's time for Biochemistry.Looking forward for tomorrow's paper.

LAMENT

LAMENT
Devotees


You
You like to live
like to believe
Essence of life is fun
Want
Want to pretend
The life that you live
Has no guiding hands and you

Jumped into the monies
And never looked back
Moved away from righteousness
You want it all
And don't care if you fall
You wanna see the world
You wanna be the world

Try
Try to believe
The reason to live
Eternal compassion
You'll feel it deep within inside of you

Grasp
The chance to live
A new life
A new beginning
But you

c/o

Why
Do you throw life away
Don't you wanna be among
The ones who faught for the truth
When you eyes were blinded
By the taste temptation in your life
Then tell me why must you

T.E.A.R.S.

I Cry Again

Just now I just finished my exam performance for Physiology.I really disappointed with myself.I knew that I'm not doing well for the exam.Oh Allah,how I wish I don't fail for the exam.From the beginning,when I first took the token and was assigned to perform the haemocytometer,my hands started trembling.I'm really scared I cannot do well.My calculation of red blood cell is wrong.Later I performed other experiment which was about the pulse examination.Still I did not answer well for every questions the examiner asked me.What had I done?When I went back to my room,I started to cry.I wanted to call my mum but she was not around.I just need someone to listen what I felt right now and comfort me.Mum,I really need you.I want to hug you.I want to tell how I am sorry for not doing well.I'm sorry for make you disappoint.Oh Allah,give me strength.Give me Your guidance.Shower me with Your bless.Give me strength so that I'm not giving up.I still have theory examinations after this.I don't want to lose hope.I want do my best.I put so much effort. And for the lecturers,I'm really sorry for not doing well.Please apology me.

Can I Do It?

Friday morning...the most blessed day in a week.I woke up a bit late.I thanked Allah for still give me a chance to breath the air that He created..looking to the sky,watching the sunrise.Reciting Al-Kahfi but not in full attention.Something bother me.Hmm..I still have lots more to revise for the exam.It's just around a corner and I'm not fully prepared.Gosh...when I'm going to change.I know last minute study it's not good and yet I still do it all over again.I remembered early in this Block II I promise myself to be consistent in study.Well,I broke it again.Again and again.Is it going to happen again?Seeing the seniors received their awards for pass the university exam with flying colours should give an inspiration to me.I can perform very well actually but the excellence will never come if I keep proscrastinating and let the laziness become my loyal partner.I've choose this path and I need to prove it.Give me Your blessing dear Allah.

GoMenNe

I'm sorry for hurting you
I'm sorry for making fool of you
I'm sorry for become so selfish
I'm sorry for not understand your feeling
I'm sorry for making you cry
I'm sorry for not kept my promise
I'm sorry for making you wait for a long time
I'm sorry for everything
I'm sorry for what I have done

(specially dedicated to a special friend)

^_^ GoMenNe ^_^

The Different Angle About Lecturers

Just few hours back I was at Valley View's lawn,attending an annual function conducted by the college.At first I thought it was just a typical Annual College Day where people came and dress up nicely,having some good food and enjoying the show.Yeah it still a typical event for me except for one part, performance by LECTURERS!A few days before I was told that some lecturers would do some performance which at that time I'm not pretty sure whether my lecturers would really do it or not.And that was the main reason I attended the function,to watch them not as lecturers but as performers. Although my dress was still with the tailor and I need to mix-and-match my outfit as I don't have other dress,I don't care how I look like anymore (REALLY?).Naahh..I have decide to come since the first time it has been announced by the Dean.Indeed,I'm a bit jealous with the seniors with their fabulous appearance and how I looked so simple compared to them.Nothing glamourous with my dress.I just looking forward for the show,NOT from the students but from the lecturers.I don't think lecturers in Malaysia are as sporting as they are.And the Dean too,I'm really surprise he was on stage,dancing like a crazy man.I don't know that Mr 'Rain Clap' can dance greatly eventhough he just only shaking his body.Ballet by Mr Ganesh Kamath and Mr Sathish Nayak is the funniest part.After this whenever I'm studying GIT chapter,I would remember him.Not to forget female lecturers who did the classical as well as the modern dancing.An experience which I don't think I can get it in other places.The rugged Dr Maya Roche and Dr Parineetha,the graceful Dr Indira and Dr Surekha Bhath..how can I ever forget that.Looking forward to next year performance..huhu

cinta_hakiki

I'm Not a Girl Not Yet a Woman

Life is full with unpredictable things.That's what people say.Is it always true?Looking to my years back during my childhood till now,YES,so many things had happen.I grew up as a matured girl..oops a matured woman..hmm I don't think that I have reach to that level.Like Britney sang her song,I'm Not a Girl Not Yet a Woman

I used to think, I had the answers to everything
But now I know,that life doesn't always go my way..yeah
Feels like I am caught in the middle
Thats when I need your love

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I'm not a girl,not yet a woman
All I need is time, A moment that is mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl,there is no need to protect me
It's time that I, learn to face up to this on my own
I have seen much more than you know
So don't tell me to shut my eyes

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I'm not a girl,not yet a woman
All I need is time, A moment that is mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl
But if you look at me closely
You will see it in my eye, this girl will always fine her way

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I'm not a girl,
I'm not a girl, don't tell me what to believe
Not yet a woman.
I'm just trying to find the woman in me

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All I need is love
Stronger than mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl
Not yet a woman
All I need is time, A moment that is mine
One of in between
I'm not a girl,not yet a woman

Few days left before I turn 21.Wow,I am old enough to vote for the leaders of my country.I can get marry at this age BUT I don't think I will do it because I believe that I am not prepared enough to enter marriage life.I think my friends can do so.And deep my heart I knew that some of my girl friends are willing to do so probably this year or next year.Being a going-to-be-21-year-old gal is really annoying in some way.People start asking are you still single?Don't you have a boyfriend?Huh..that questions makes me sick sometimes.And what can I do is smile to them or laughing like someone had told me some silly joke.Yeah,my mum start asking about that too.Hmm..what to do.Life as a woman is not an easy task.Just hoping I can meet a right guy at a right time and at a right place.

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