aku mencari DIA

Aku mencari Dia
Di tengah-tengah kesedihan
Saat-saat ku kedukaan
Detik-detik ku memerlukan
Tatkala aku kesepian
Sewaktu aku dalam kepayahan
Di celah-celah kehidupan


Aku mencari Dia
Dia yang paling memahami
Dia yang paling dekat
Dia yang sentiasa bersama-samaku
Dia yang mendengar masalahku
Dia yang melihat diriku


Aku mencari Dia
Dengan segala kerinduan
Dengan penuh harapan
Dengan rasa rendah diri
Dengan rasa malu
Dengan rasa kerdil
Dengan penuh keinginan hati


Aku mencari Dia
Tatkala hati kekalutan
Tatkala jiwa keresahan
Tatkala rasa kesesakan
Tatkala lemas dengan dugaan


Kuharap aku selalu mencari dia
Walau saat dilanda ribut perasaan
Walau disinari mentari keceriaan
Walau dunia kelam keseorangan
Walau dalam apa jua keadaan
Aku akan sentiasa mencari Dia

Countdown

Two papers left
Three more days
Four more days to one-month holiday
Five more days to go to Bangalore
Eight more days to start the journey
....i'm waiting....

DIA tahu apa yang terbaik

Kebelakangan ini aku menerima banyak berita yang mengejutkan dan salah satunya benar-benar melukakan hati. Air mata dan suara mama jadi peneman. Namun tatkala membaca ayat-ayat-ayatNya:


..sesungguhnya pertolongan Allah amat dekat [2:214]


Dan sungguh Kami benar-benar menguji kamu sehingga Kami mengetahui orang-orang yan benar-benar berjihad dan bersabar di antara kamu dan Kami akan uji perihal kamu [47:31]


Boleh jadi kamu membenci sesuatu, padahal ia amat baik bagimu, dan boleh jadi [pula] kamu menyukai sesuatu, padahal ia amat buruk bagimu; Allah mengetahui, sedang kamu tidak mengetahui. [2:216]


Dan terima kasih kepada Kak Fid atas tazkirah yang dipetik dari buku La Tahzan:

MENGAPA HARUS BERSEDIH JIKA ANDA MEMILIKI 6 FORMULA?
1)Percaya sepenuhya kepada Allah
2)Kesedaranku bahawa semua yg telah Allah takdirkan akan terjadi
3)Sabar adalah senjata terbaik yg mesti dipergunakan oleh org2 yg sedang mendapat ujian
4) Jika saya tidak bersikap sabar, lalu apa lg yg boleh saya lakukan? Dan kesedihan tidak akan boleh membantuku
5) Mungkin saja saya akan berada dlm keadaan yg lebih buruk daripada keadaan saya sekarang ini
6) Dari semasa ke semasa jalan keluar akan terus terbuka


Terima kasih kerana mengingatkan saya walaupun Kak Fid tak tahu apa yang terjadi sebenarnya.



~Dia Yang Maha Mengetahui~

YESTERDAY

Yesterday

Just another day to let by

Just another moment to seek through

Just another memory to be remembered

Just another dream to fly away

Just another thought that cross the mind

Yesterday

Farther and farther it goes

Left behind the sorrows

Bitterness faded

Anger dissipated

Frustration ended

Worries are gone

Fears went by

Troubles will say goodbye

Yesterday

Never be the same again

Mistakes do not occur twice

Learn from the past

Redo the script for tomorrow

Regain back the lost hope

Rewrite the future

Rebuild the life once again

Yesterday passed by

Broken heart will be mend

Joys refill the emptiness

Pain is unhurt anymore

Love finally find its way

Breaking NEWS!!!

Manipal was raining today. Unbelievable. It supposed to be the peak of hot weather. Winter but hot and dry. Strange...but according to my lecturer, now is winter season. I knew it winter but aren't it supposed to be cold? But, it's hot here. Really hot. Hmm..seems the weather does not follow the law of nature anymore.

Tribute to Everyone

Thank you so much for everyone who wish for my birthday.

To my mum, I'm so sorry for worrying you. How I wish to get a hug and enjoy a special treat that you would prepare for me. To my father, I wish I can become brighter and get good results which will make you proud. How I wish, I complete my studies so that you would not think too much on how to earn enough money for us. I know you are tired. To my siblings (Abang, Amir, Kak Cik, Amin and Adik), I love you all. Thanks for the sms wishing for Along's birthday.

To my dearest bestfriend, I like your message the most:
Hearts could only love for a while, Feet could only walk some miles, Clothes won't forever be in style, but having you as my friend is forever worthwile. Happy 22nd birthday, Damia.
I would like to share a piece of chocolate-rich cake with you.

To my close friend who put up my birthday wish as his status in YM, I'm really touched.

To all my housemates who celebrated my birthday. Dinner at China Valley, Chocolate Fantasy from Coffee Day and Tiramisu at Piccolo's. A great treat. Plus, a special present: FREE trip to Old Trafford!

For friends who started sending testimonials, cards, smses since few days back, how a wonderful moment I have. Thanks a lot guys!!

To my halaqah's sisters, I'm surprised all of you remembered my birthday eventhough the intensity for the coming university exam fill the mind.

To 4 guys sharing a birthday present dedicated to me, it's a lovely present but I'm too old for that stuff.


Minna...arigato

A Day To Remember

'A year older, a step wiser'

Today 7th February 2008. It's my birthday today. I'm 22 year-old girl(?) already. A girl?Or a woman? Maybe I should say like this '..I'm not a girl, not yet a woman..'. Well, that's sound much better. I would first and foremost express my gratitude to HIM for give me such a wonderful life. Although I have encountered all the bitterness in my life, I knew that's for my sake. So that my life is not just a mere bland life. The moments He gives the tests, He wants me to be a good Muslimah. A better person on each day that have passed by. A humble and faithful servant. A great daughter. An example as an eldest sister. A friend whom others can depend on. An exceptional wife in future. A loving mother to her children. And I am thankful for His guide. For being born as Muslim. For being a real Muslim.

And so yesterday I've cried because just a small matter. Have I forget what He says? That a Muslim cannot say that he/she has strong faith until He tests him/her. I want things to happen according to my plan but it does not seem to happen the way it should be. So, I cried. I almost forget. And then I turned to His Book. I cried again. This time not because the thing which bothering me but due to my recklessness towards Him. Have I ever forget Al-Baqarah:216? Don't I remember As-Saff:2-3? How can I ever forget the promise made as mentioned in Al-An'am:162?

Here I am, haven't change my attitude even a bit. 'Learn to control, Damia, you can do it'. Build up the patience. They are other people behind you. Who support you. Who cherish you. Don't you remember an advice from a friend? 'You cannot settle the problems by shedding tears'. Have you forgot? Your bestfriend says 'I know you're strong. You can overcome all this'. Even if there's no one whom you can talk to, you still have HIM. He never turns you down. It's you who turn Him down.

Look at the bright side. You never know what will He gives you in future. If it's not in this world, it will probably in Afterlife.

Smile...and all your tears will fade away